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I've been MIA from livejournal for a while. I'm on vacation in Houston and haven't been happier.
I dread going back to Indiana. This is home, it always will be. I just need to win the Lotto to move my sorry ass back to Houston permanently.
My mom and dad said I look horrible, Georgia said I have 3 times the number of scars I had before I left home. Granted it's true. I have been cutting on damn near a daily basis in Indiana, as opposed to once a month or so here at home. Suicidal thoughts are on an hourly basis instead of a daily basis.
On another note, I love how happy my niece and nephew are. They LOVE their grandparents, and my mom and dad love spoiling them rotten. They tell my sister and me, "stop yelling at them, don't spank him/her". Ok, who are they and what have they done to my parents. When I was a kid, I got the ever loving shit BEAT outta me. To top it off , yesterday morning mom asked Ana if she wanted anything, she said "yeah a few snacks for the kids." Mom brought like 4 or 5 boxes of pastries and goodies... ok so why didn't I have these parents growing up. not fair
totally not fair XD
So it goes without saying, Ana decided to move down here in about a year's time. Me? I need to finish school and move back here so I can have a decent job not not have to move to the other side of the country to work.
And just cause it's awesome, here's The Islander by Nightwish:
I dread going back to Indiana. This is home, it always will be. I just need to win the Lotto to move my sorry ass back to Houston permanently.
My mom and dad said I look horrible, Georgia said I have 3 times the number of scars I had before I left home. Granted it's true. I have been cutting on damn near a daily basis in Indiana, as opposed to once a month or so here at home. Suicidal thoughts are on an hourly basis instead of a daily basis.
On another note, I love how happy my niece and nephew are. They LOVE their grandparents, and my mom and dad love spoiling them rotten. They tell my sister and me, "stop yelling at them, don't spank him/her". Ok, who are they and what have they done to my parents. When I was a kid, I got the ever loving shit BEAT outta me. To top it off , yesterday morning mom asked Ana if she wanted anything, she said "yeah a few snacks for the kids." Mom brought like 4 or 5 boxes of pastries and goodies... ok so why didn't I have these parents growing up. not fair
totally not fair XD
So it goes without saying, Ana decided to move down here in about a year's time. Me? I need to finish school and move back here so I can have a decent job not not have to move to the other side of the country to work.
And just cause it's awesome, here's The Islander by Nightwish:
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