The turns of time and all that came with it...

[tiggerstale]

SO this will be yet another post lost in the void of the internet.  I think it may be better that way.  It's hard to really tell people what i'm feeling anymore.  I was going through some old post from Jess, Leah, Chris & I.  I really miss how things used to be.  the light hearted conversations & posts of us all journying through life together.   but enough of my reminising.. i'm feeling what i am right now... because of today.  i've been given so much around here at florida.  beyond work but work is the focus for today.  I'm getting bounced around in high positions.  and yet i can't seem to plant my feet anywhere.  i'm really hoping that the interviews next week go well.   I could really use a change of pace.  And Dream Squad... OMG>.. i would be SO happy.  but i really don't think that will ever happen.  All i ever seem to do is be almost perfect.  unfoutunetly.. the Almost... is what kills me.   Arrrg... welcome to the shit we like to call life.  well this is my last day here in my office... then i go back to waterparks... to being a guard... so much... so little time.. what do i do... i've screwed things with friends too much for them to forgive,  i've asked too much of everything around me... sometimes i wonder why i do anything at all... cause i don't seem to do much right.   i sure hope i'm learning and growing.  if anyone's found this... *sigh* cool... but i really don't know who would even care to look into this.  however the only people who ever could see this... i need to apologize to all of you for forgeting the simple pleasure of your company and being an idiot who thought with the wrong head.  I know things can never be how they were as much as i want them to be.  and i'm even more sorry that it's my fault they can't.  I screwed everything up... but i do still love you all.  If this is Jess... thank you for loving me.

I love you

Mystic Mourn