Lost
I don't know what I'm doing with my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some days I think it is grad school. Some days I think it is med school. Some days I think wow, maybe neuroscience, but then I inevitably come across some boring ass paper which kills that idea.
There is a program at the University of Chicago that actually accepts 2 or 3 MD/PhD students for PhDs in the social sciences, which is extremely rare. The usual MD/PhDs are for biomedical research. I think that could be great for me, but do I really want to be a doctor? I don't know, and the fact that I don't know can arguably be equated with "no." I want to go to med school for the knowledge, but not necessarily to be a doctor for the rest of my life (or many years). I'm rare, cause it's usually the other way around for most pre-meds--med school is a means to an end, not an end in itself. It's like I want to learn the stuff for kicks and nothing more. You know, so I can make movies and ride my bike during the week and do triple bypasses on weekends to kill some time.
And yes, you are right. I. Am. Retarded.
Right now, I'm leaning towards grad school. Still flexible hours, I would most likely get a stipend, and my two mentors have connections which hopefully could land me at some of the BEST programs in the country. The mere thought of doing research with America's leading professors in IR is a very exciting thing.
But augh, can't someone just make a decision for me?
Some days I think it is grad school. Some days I think it is med school. Some days I think wow, maybe neuroscience, but then I inevitably come across some boring ass paper which kills that idea.
There is a program at the University of Chicago that actually accepts 2 or 3 MD/PhD students for PhDs in the social sciences, which is extremely rare. The usual MD/PhDs are for biomedical research. I think that could be great for me, but do I really want to be a doctor? I don't know, and the fact that I don't know can arguably be equated with "no." I want to go to med school for the knowledge, but not necessarily to be a doctor for the rest of my life (or many years). I'm rare, cause it's usually the other way around for most pre-meds--med school is a means to an end, not an end in itself. It's like I want to learn the stuff for kicks and nothing more. You know, so I can make movies and ride my bike during the week and do triple bypasses on weekends to kill some time.
And yes, you are right. I. Am. Retarded.
Right now, I'm leaning towards grad school. Still flexible hours, I would most likely get a stipend, and my two mentors have connections which hopefully could land me at some of the BEST programs in the country. The mere thought of doing research with America's leading professors in IR is a very exciting thing.
But augh, can't someone just make a decision for me?