yay school...

[tiggerharpttu]

so, classes started...not that bad really. i don't like not being able to talk to josh for that long, but if i'm gonna get out of here and be able to move with him when he gradautes, i need to get my nose to the grindstone and get my shit done. ya know? things with josh are going like a normal relationship...we still talk about everything and we're still completely honest with each other...which makes the hard times go alot easier. what makes it hard for me is the fact that big josh is still sleeping here, and playing nothing but w.o.w. *world of warcraft* he bitches to josh that i live here and don't pay rent but i'm josh's friggin girlfriend! whether i pay rent is none of his damn business! what pisses me off even more is that josh told him a week ago that he had to start sleeping at his parents' house...i mean he said he could still hang out here, he just had to sleep there...but does he have enough respect to do that??? shit no! he just sits his lazy ass in a chair in front of the computer for hours on end playing that friggin game and when he's done he goes to sleep on the couch! at least cody pays rent. granted all he does is play the same game and sleep...*and when i say that's ALL he does...it is ALL he does* but at least he pays rent! and no, i don't pay rent but that's b/c josh and i are together and i at least pull my weight around here. i do shit, i do laundry, i clean...etc. etc. and like i said...i'm not just some random chick that's staying at the house...i'm the girlfriend of the owner of the house. if josh says i don't pay rent then it's nobody's business. he's bitched so much to the point that i only have say in our room...which is bullshit! he's not suppossed to live here...I DO! i should be able to have a say in the house that i call home!!!! how would you feel if you had no say in your own house...especially b/c some lazy ass fuck head doesn't want to go home and wants to mooch off of his friends for as long as he can and not get a job. oh, supposedly he has a new job at a bar that he hasn't started yet...however, i doubt he'll be able to keep it. he hasn't been able to keep any job he's had since i've known him. *granted he had ONE and when he got fired he took the opportunity to be lazy and sat with it* i'm just a little aggravated b/c I can't tell him to leave b/c he'll get all bitchy if i try to have any say in my house. and he has no respect for josh or else he would have left when josh told him too. josh is going to tell him today that b/c he stayed here last night he's not allowed over at all tomorrow, i just hope that he has the respect to listen. he just has no respect for anyone but himself...and obviously not even that or else he would be a useful part of society by now...at least i go to school and am trying to further myself!

ok...done with that rant for now...saw the sonogram of mandi's baby yesterday...her and i have been having some good talks since school started...granted things obviously aren't right back where they were before, but that's understandable. but things are going ok b/t us. we've talked alot of stuff out and both of us were able to admit that we both did shit we shouldn't have *how ever well intended it was*. but other than that....she makes a cute little pregnant chick. she finally has a belly...which is odd as hell to see her with a belly, but cute. *then again i think pregnant chicks are cute...and i'll be one someday...not soon but someday*

well, i think that's all for now. sorry you had to read me vent but i don't wanna burden josh with all of that so i put it here. if you actually continued reading after that, i'm sorry. but thanks...shows me at least someone is listening.

till next time...ttfn