Entering the Gateway
It's at times odd how life works. September, November and December have always been my worste months of the year. Seems September 1st is the gateway to hell for me. Anything that can go wrong, usually does... It was this time of the year where I died, where my heart is most often broken, and when finances fall apart.
I can already,
Smell it in the air,
Taste it in the water,
Hear it in the earth,
See it in the lei and
Feel it in what's left of my soul.
The icy fingers of disaster are already reaching for me.
I'm already behind on electric, and while Fall and winter don't require much of it, and I'm likely to have all the bills caught up just about the start of september... I can only wonder what what awaits me on my sojourn through hell.
Last night while I was driving, I felt first a distinct tingling that I've always associated with EJ reaching out to me, or being in distress. I've kept that connection locked away in the hopes it would atrophy and sever itself on it's own. Though I couldn't get much out of it, but it was persistent. while she may dislike me, and has good reason to believe I dislike her, if she's in trouble, knowing me, I'm going to offer any help I can.
As though that wasn't enough, soon after that I felt a sharp pain in my chest, from another woman who established a connection to me years before. Speaking of dying this time of the year, and I'm getting alarms from the one who killed me. This one was so strong that while I was able to keep driving, I lost all sence of where I was. Instead I was locked in a vision withing my mind, of her Overdosing. I felt all the strength drained right out of me... it was 3 hours later when I became aware again, and I was all but passed out over the steering wheel.
I can't say that one of both of these isn't entirely in my head... even if I wish otherwise. I strongly doubt it though.
I can already,
Smell it in the air,
Taste it in the water,
Hear it in the earth,
See it in the lei and
Feel it in what's left of my soul.
The icy fingers of disaster are already reaching for me.
I'm already behind on electric, and while Fall and winter don't require much of it, and I'm likely to have all the bills caught up just about the start of september... I can only wonder what what awaits me on my sojourn through hell.
Last night while I was driving, I felt first a distinct tingling that I've always associated with EJ reaching out to me, or being in distress. I've kept that connection locked away in the hopes it would atrophy and sever itself on it's own. Though I couldn't get much out of it, but it was persistent. while she may dislike me, and has good reason to believe I dislike her, if she's in trouble, knowing me, I'm going to offer any help I can.
As though that wasn't enough, soon after that I felt a sharp pain in my chest, from another woman who established a connection to me years before. Speaking of dying this time of the year, and I'm getting alarms from the one who killed me. This one was so strong that while I was able to keep driving, I lost all sence of where I was. Instead I was locked in a vision withing my mind, of her Overdosing. I felt all the strength drained right out of me... it was 3 hours later when I became aware again, and I was all but passed out over the steering wheel.
I can't say that one of both of these isn't entirely in my head... even if I wish otherwise. I strongly doubt it though.