I really don't have a title for this right now.

Nov 19, 2006 10:04

This is to alot of people... if you can pick out the part that's for you... great... if not...

I went through hell for you, and you never seemed to appriciate it.  In  the end, it was me who killed us, I accept the blame, I take the responcibility... and now, you are one of my best friends.  We were both too stubborn, we couldn't deal with eachother the way we needed to be dealt with.   You have a man now who seems to be able to do that for you.  I can't tell you with words just how happy I am for you, or how much better it makes me feel, seeing you glowing with such happiness, you do deserve it.

I could never give you anything you didn't have already.  I'm nothing to you, I know that.  I'm a remnant from the past, yet somehow you manage to have power over me.  It's a sad twist of fate's favoritism.  If not for this feeling I can't identify, I'd likely have nothing to do with you.  No, you're not a bad person, but your world is a direct antithesis of my own.  We are too different, I know that, yet seems you're always on guard against me wanting more than friendship from you. Believe me, I don't, it wouldn't work, and we'd make eachother miserable.   If you feel you need to keep me at a distance, that's fine... Just be honest about it  is all I've ever asked of any friends.

I never did anything to deserve what you did to me.  I was the first person in your life to treat you like an adult, and instead of being an adult, you acted like a child.  You lied to me about everything, from the very start you lied to me.  I would have stood by you against the world, and you threw me away.  I gave you my heart and you threw it away.
You threw a wrench into my life, and I forgave you.  You tried to justify your mistakes instead of taking responcibility, and I forgave you.  I'm done with you.

You called me a big brother once... but you don't even know what a big brother is.  You don't know what a friend is, you don't know what a sister is, you don't know what a family is.  It's not your fault... to a point.  I can see that you're mother was never more than a pathetic 13 yearold.  She knows the words, but can't talk the talk.  She's too busy gorging herself on twinkies and begging strippers for a cut of their tips.  You are supposed to be an adult now... So wake up, look around you... and for once... DO SOMETHING ON YOUR OWN!!  You have an ongoing choice to make, keep going how you're going and end up like your mother... OR take a good hard look around you, at the life she's dragged you through, and DO SOMETHING to make it BETTER!!  Make your own life!!

You've been going through so much...  I wish I could help.  Yes I like you, and I don't care who hasn't caught onto that by now.  I don't know what I have to offer you though...  You say no one accepts you for who you are, yet what you tell me about who you are, sounds like me... cept I'm not big on cutesy stuffed animals... well maybe stuffed wolves, and tigers for obvious reasons... but other than that... no, I get you a net and you can stuff them in there.  but seriously,  Few people have ever gotten to me like you have, and never in such a short time.  You dodge the question I keep asking you, and I can only assume it's because of 1 of 2 reasons.  Either the answer would be opposite mine, and you're kind nature demands that you try not to hurt my feelings... Or it's because you are confused about how you feel, and don't want to answer until you are completely certain.  You are as close to a perfect person, as I can imagine there being in the world.

The Rams SUCK!!!!!!!
Get over it, and learn to love the Vikings!!
Your cat's name is no longer Pisshead... it's Fetish!!!
and stop smoking my suitcases!!!  they aren't those kind of bags!!!

To anyone who gets this....  I've been listening to country
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