Interesting
Wow, I havn't updated this year at all, I've been rally buisy and all, and there've been a lot of things going on. Work isn't as good as it could be, I think I'm going to get fired because I've been late twice, and I didn't know I had to work last night so I wasn't there. I hope Nanci will be leanient on me. Kaity and I will be celebrating our 1 year on the 11th :D It hasn't seemed that long, really. I love her with all my heart, and nothing in this world can ever change that.
I've been trying to figure out what's wrong with me with homework, I need to get ALL of it in, not just some, I'm screwed if I don't. I'm getting my act together now *Smashes head with keyboard* there we go... I just need to do it. I mean yeah, so it doesn't give me a lot of time to do the stuff I want, but in the long run.... it'll be worth it. I need to fix it. I need to do it, and quit kidding myself. It all needs to get done. I have a chance right NOW to turn in math stuff I've missed, and that'll help my grade before the 6 weeks is up.... that's right around the corner, careening towards us at a frightening rate. I'm eligable for my lisence now, and if my grades are satisfactory.... guess what.... the t-bird is MINE. mwahahaha. But i need to aim just for the grades now, not the prize. That's my goal.... get it together so that everything will fall into place.
I've been trying to figure everything out, with my parents and all. I thought they were breathing down my neck, but I realize it's them just trying to help, just trying to scare me into fixing it, just them giving me advice, and I just need to take it and stop being defensive. I put too much stress on them, and they don't need it. It's MY stress, I need to keep it to myself and not let it off on ANYONE. I need to loosen it for myself. I need to clear my mind, and fix the problem inside of me..... laziness. I was beginning to become jaded from all of it, but now i think I know what to do. I NEED to go to college, and i NEED to save up money... (after this month) so I can help pay for an appartment, my insurance, utilities, food, and college. I need a better plan that what I had before, I was just letting things happen to me, I was living day-by-day.... no more, I'm done worrying.... only I can fix it. I need to look twenty miles down the road, I need to look to how my future will be if I don't get myself together.
My priorities come as follows:
1.) Kaity, and giving her the future she deserves by fixing it now.
2.) Getting my lisence... It will happen, but my main focus is life, preparing for it, preparing to make it better
3.)My job, i need the money
3.5)friends. Sorry if that offends anyone, but I can't help that I'm worried about what's going to happen AFTER high school. There'll be time to hang out, but not as often as it used to be.
4.)The little stuff, It'll come to me on it's own, the reward of working hard.
I need to fix it now, need to fix my future from the damage I've done to it by not doing my work. I need to fix it NOW.
Suprisingly, I'm calm about this, it's a big deal, but I know I can do it.
I've been trying to figure out what's wrong with me with homework, I need to get ALL of it in, not just some, I'm screwed if I don't. I'm getting my act together now *Smashes head with keyboard* there we go... I just need to do it. I mean yeah, so it doesn't give me a lot of time to do the stuff I want, but in the long run.... it'll be worth it. I need to fix it. I need to do it, and quit kidding myself. It all needs to get done. I have a chance right NOW to turn in math stuff I've missed, and that'll help my grade before the 6 weeks is up.... that's right around the corner, careening towards us at a frightening rate. I'm eligable for my lisence now, and if my grades are satisfactory.... guess what.... the t-bird is MINE. mwahahaha. But i need to aim just for the grades now, not the prize. That's my goal.... get it together so that everything will fall into place.
I've been trying to figure everything out, with my parents and all. I thought they were breathing down my neck, but I realize it's them just trying to help, just trying to scare me into fixing it, just them giving me advice, and I just need to take it and stop being defensive. I put too much stress on them, and they don't need it. It's MY stress, I need to keep it to myself and not let it off on ANYONE. I need to loosen it for myself. I need to clear my mind, and fix the problem inside of me..... laziness. I was beginning to become jaded from all of it, but now i think I know what to do. I NEED to go to college, and i NEED to save up money... (after this month) so I can help pay for an appartment, my insurance, utilities, food, and college. I need a better plan that what I had before, I was just letting things happen to me, I was living day-by-day.... no more, I'm done worrying.... only I can fix it. I need to look twenty miles down the road, I need to look to how my future will be if I don't get myself together.
My priorities come as follows:
1.) Kaity, and giving her the future she deserves by fixing it now.
2.) Getting my lisence... It will happen, but my main focus is life, preparing for it, preparing to make it better
3.)My job, i need the money
3.5)friends. Sorry if that offends anyone, but I can't help that I'm worried about what's going to happen AFTER high school. There'll be time to hang out, but not as often as it used to be.
4.)The little stuff, It'll come to me on it's own, the reward of working hard.
I need to fix it now, need to fix my future from the damage I've done to it by not doing my work. I need to fix it NOW.
Suprisingly, I'm calm about this, it's a big deal, but I know I can do it.