I want out
I think I might want out. I have a feeling that my fears are real. So, there are some questions that I need to ask. Or maybe not. Because the fact is, I wont believe the answers I get. Ever. That's just how I've always been. Because I know that everyone can make mistakes. And because I know how easy it is for me to make the same ones. Eventually, something will happen. Someone gets hurt. It already does.
I'd really love to just move away. Tell no one where I'm going and just start over. It would be like dying. Only, everyone knows that I'm okay and no one hurts very much. They'd hurt less if I stayed and let them see me like this.
I want to be fearless. I don't want to be ashamed anymore. I want to finally be what is in my heart. Why is that so hard?
I'd really love to just move away. Tell no one where I'm going and just start over. It would be like dying. Only, everyone knows that I'm okay and no one hurts very much. They'd hurt less if I stayed and let them see me like this.
I want to be fearless. I don't want to be ashamed anymore. I want to finally be what is in my heart. Why is that so hard?