I have a feeling that you don't care anymore and you're right, it's my fault
Things happening in my life:
-I spent all of last Saturday in the emergency room with a sick boyfriend with a bad gastro-intestinal virus, so delirious from his 104 degree fever and dehydration that when asked by his mother what caused the sickness, he responded resolutely, it was the computer!
-Upon a strange inkling last night around 1am I opened an abandoned letter from Boston University lying on my desk. It informed me that I had to attend an hour long financial aid exit session the following morning (today) at 9am, otherwise I would not receive my graduation diploma. Upon filling out the necessary form to bring to the meeting, I had to list 2 references other than family or students, including their home and work addresses. At this point I came to the sad conclusion that I have no true contacts in Long Island anymore. I listed a past employer at the Merrick Library who more likely than not has since passed away, and a woman who worked in the registrar office of my high school.
-I got an internship at the MFA, topping my internship chart with a total of 3 simultaneous internships (the MFA, Little, Brown and Company, and the MPG Contemporary). So I quit the MPG Contemporary only to be informed that the MFA would prefer me to start in the summer anyway. I now have 1 internship and 1 lined up. I will have to leave L,B at the end of the school year since they will get a new full-time undergraduate intern, and I will then be left with 1 unpaid internship and 0 real jobs. It’s a bad equation.
-I leave college with no concrete passions, motivations or goals.
-I just complained to the head copyeditor at work about the disappointment of my chunky smoked salmon and cream cheese bagel for lunch. This is perhaps proof of why I will never make it in a business environment.
-I hate anti-humanist literature.
-I recently learned that taking 2 graduate level courses constitutes as a being a full time grad student. I therefore discovered I am currently a full time grad student and a part time undergrad. There are no benefits to this situation. Just enormous amounts of reading, 5 large papers, 2 large presentations, and a lack of love for any of it. And having an undergraduate degree will not get you a job.
-I spent all of last Saturday in the emergency room with a sick boyfriend with a bad gastro-intestinal virus, so delirious from his 104 degree fever and dehydration that when asked by his mother what caused the sickness, he responded resolutely, it was the computer!
-Upon a strange inkling last night around 1am I opened an abandoned letter from Boston University lying on my desk. It informed me that I had to attend an hour long financial aid exit session the following morning (today) at 9am, otherwise I would not receive my graduation diploma. Upon filling out the necessary form to bring to the meeting, I had to list 2 references other than family or students, including their home and work addresses. At this point I came to the sad conclusion that I have no true contacts in Long Island anymore. I listed a past employer at the Merrick Library who more likely than not has since passed away, and a woman who worked in the registrar office of my high school.
-I got an internship at the MFA, topping my internship chart with a total of 3 simultaneous internships (the MFA, Little, Brown and Company, and the MPG Contemporary). So I quit the MPG Contemporary only to be informed that the MFA would prefer me to start in the summer anyway. I now have 1 internship and 1 lined up. I will have to leave L,B at the end of the school year since they will get a new full-time undergraduate intern, and I will then be left with 1 unpaid internship and 0 real jobs. It’s a bad equation.
-I leave college with no concrete passions, motivations or goals.
-I just complained to the head copyeditor at work about the disappointment of my chunky smoked salmon and cream cheese bagel for lunch. This is perhaps proof of why I will never make it in a business environment.
-I hate anti-humanist literature.
-I recently learned that taking 2 graduate level courses constitutes as a being a full time grad student. I therefore discovered I am currently a full time grad student and a part time undergrad. There are no benefits to this situation. Just enormous amounts of reading, 5 large papers, 2 large presentations, and a lack of love for any of it. And having an undergraduate degree will not get you a job.