The Results Are In.....
So, I hung out with Geoff tonight and we talked. It was very strange, it kind of felt like our break-up didn't happen, by that I mean we went right back to being friends. So, it was almost as though we never dated. I brought up the subject of us having sex, and he's going through some moral thing...long story short, I was rejected. But, it's not personal. That's what he told me, but I have taken it personally and I am feeling alot more rejected than I thought I would at this point. I mean, I begged for it!! Short of getting on my knees (insert joke here), I begged him to sleep with me. I have never felt so sad and pathetic in my entire life, I am ready to crawl into a hole for the next few years. Apparently, he had considered the idea when I had first posted about it, but stupid me waits to say anything!!!!! :::kicks herself in the ass:::
To make matters EVEN worse, I was also rejected by John. Get this, Geoff was the one who basically relayed the rejection. I guess John had told his friends that he didn't see him that way and yet he didn't even consider the idea of telling me. So, in the end I was not only rejected by one guy, but two in the same fucking night!!! So, this is the end of my sex life...for now.
That's it, I'm done. I give up, I quit! Maybe Geoff MIGHT change his mind, but I am not holding my breath. As for John, I am so hurt that he couldn't be a man and tell me how he really felt instead of stringing me along like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In other news, I asked Geoff if we could hang out again and he agreed. So, I am going to head out to Oakdale again next Wed to hang out and continue the attempt at being friends. Time for me to go to bed and do my best to recover from this nightmare of a night.
To make matters EVEN worse, I was also rejected by John. Get this, Geoff was the one who basically relayed the rejection. I guess John had told his friends that he didn't see him that way and yet he didn't even consider the idea of telling me. So, in the end I was not only rejected by one guy, but two in the same fucking night!!! So, this is the end of my sex life...for now.
That's it, I'm done. I give up, I quit! Maybe Geoff MIGHT change his mind, but I am not holding my breath. As for John, I am so hurt that he couldn't be a man and tell me how he really felt instead of stringing me along like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In other news, I asked Geoff if we could hang out again and he agreed. So, I am going to head out to Oakdale again next Wed to hang out and continue the attempt at being friends. Time for me to go to bed and do my best to recover from this nightmare of a night.