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tody I was so close to hurting zach just had to walk away and leave him in his lil hichair thing. He is doing this shit where he will not eat anything good for him and when you do sit him down to eat he throws an fit and keeps pushing your and way no matter what it is he vould even like the food and the will either spit it out or push your and or or you know my fave stick his hand on the spoon so it gets all over the place well today i had enough and i actully had to walk away form and of cours i am in davis and barrett was ther and i finally just walked away and let him cry there and about 2 mins later he comes in the romoa dn i just said to leave me alone so he lets zach get his way and takes him out and lets him run around insted of actully makeing him eat like he should.
God sometimes i think Zach would have been betetr off if i wuld have let someone else raise him i mean What the fuck am i thinking everytime i spend time with the kid he is the spawn of satian he is 13 monthes old and i already waht to knock him out i should not be thinking like this i ahve no idea what i am doing and i am afraid i am just fucking zach up so much or he is going to be one of those children that do not listen to anybody and always gets their way because their parents gave up on them.
God sometimes i think Zach would have been betetr off if i wuld have let someone else raise him i mean What the fuck am i thinking everytime i spend time with the kid he is the spawn of satian he is 13 monthes old and i already waht to knock him out i should not be thinking like this i ahve no idea what i am doing and i am afraid i am just fucking zach up so much or he is going to be one of those children that do not listen to anybody and always gets their way because their parents gave up on them.