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I'm so sad today and I don't even know why. Probably because it's raining.
Well, I do know why, technically (I feel like I'm losing my father because I never see him, I never have enough money for anything anymore, I don't have the car enough to make more money, I have no marketable skills, I haven't been writing enough lately, I never see my friends anymore because of lack of car, I feel like I'm a bad person because I'm failing to complete my obligations and keep my promises, I miss my kitty, my headphones don't work, I don't have enough bras, can't wash my shorts because of creepy lack of ceiling in the laundry room, can't do things I want to do, miss my friends in CA, miss my friends I only know online, my room's a mess and there's still things in here that aren't mine from when the house was being renovated, I feel overweight and out of shape, the two barn cats I was closest to died, I haven't been sleeping, I haven't been riding in forever... I could go on). But none of this has made me sad before.
I don't know. I think I'll blame the rain.
Well, I do know why, technically (I feel like I'm losing my father because I never see him, I never have enough money for anything anymore, I don't have the car enough to make more money, I have no marketable skills, I haven't been writing enough lately, I never see my friends anymore because of lack of car, I feel like I'm a bad person because I'm failing to complete my obligations and keep my promises, I miss my kitty, my headphones don't work, I don't have enough bras, can't wash my shorts because of creepy lack of ceiling in the laundry room, can't do things I want to do, miss my friends in CA, miss my friends I only know online, my room's a mess and there's still things in here that aren't mine from when the house was being renovated, I feel overweight and out of shape, the two barn cats I was closest to died, I haven't been sleeping, I haven't been riding in forever... I could go on). But none of this has made me sad before.
I don't know. I think I'll blame the rain.