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Other's perfection makes me sick. Everything makes me sick nowadays though. I can't stand anything. I can't stand being around others, especially my family. There's too many of them and they want too much.
My grandmother fought with me today. I hate it. But I looked her in the eye and told her outright that I will be moving. The words Fuck you screamed out my eyes. She didn't fight back after that. She knows she's lost the fight with me. She knows it.
The weight gain isn't going so well. I've put on some water weight with the ensure, I had hoped I wouldn't feel so bloated all the time. I actually feel worse about myself.
Life has become so distorted for me. Things I loved and cherish I now resent or avoid.
My mind just wants to die sometimes.
On a brighter note I'll only have 3 subjects to finish my high school diploma, instead of the 4 or 6 I thought. Hurrah. Sadly they are all sciences. Eww. At least no math.
I'm tired of feeling bad, so in turn I feel worse.
Still have no idea what to do for Jon's birthday. I wish I could do something special and fun, but I'm completely idea-less. I wish I could do something he'd like but apparently I am not good at guessing whatever it is he has in mind.
In other news we have a puppy. o.o Me and my 20-year old cat, Gomez, do not want a puppy. She's loud and annoying... End of story.
My grandmother fought with me today. I hate it. But I looked her in the eye and told her outright that I will be moving. The words Fuck you screamed out my eyes. She didn't fight back after that. She knows she's lost the fight with me. She knows it.
The weight gain isn't going so well. I've put on some water weight with the ensure, I had hoped I wouldn't feel so bloated all the time. I actually feel worse about myself.
Life has become so distorted for me. Things I loved and cherish I now resent or avoid.
My mind just wants to die sometimes.
On a brighter note I'll only have 3 subjects to finish my high school diploma, instead of the 4 or 6 I thought. Hurrah. Sadly they are all sciences. Eww. At least no math.
I'm tired of feeling bad, so in turn I feel worse.
Still have no idea what to do for Jon's birthday. I wish I could do something special and fun, but I'm completely idea-less. I wish I could do something he'd like but apparently I am not good at guessing whatever it is he has in mind.
In other news we have a puppy. o.o Me and my 20-year old cat, Gomez, do not want a puppy. She's loud and annoying... End of story.