home = boredom.
yeah. so i'm home.
it's kinda boring.
and i've magically turned into a granny who goes to bed mad early all the time.
it's... magical.
elyse wants to fix me up with her jew friend for some meaningless sex. i don't know if meaningless sex is on the menu for me this summer. really what i need to do is step away from men altogether and just detox but it's really really really hard when sometimes it's all i can think about... i fall asleep thinking... i wake up thinking... i think about it when i drive... it's bad. mostly, i'm just thinking about how i totally messed things up with blake by letting myself get attached, but that's a lost cause that is going down the drain as we speak.... or as i speak... as i type... i'm an idiot.
le sigh.
it's kinda boring.
and i've magically turned into a granny who goes to bed mad early all the time.
it's... magical.
elyse wants to fix me up with her jew friend for some meaningless sex. i don't know if meaningless sex is on the menu for me this summer. really what i need to do is step away from men altogether and just detox but it's really really really hard when sometimes it's all i can think about... i fall asleep thinking... i wake up thinking... i think about it when i drive... it's bad. mostly, i'm just thinking about how i totally messed things up with blake by letting myself get attached, but that's a lost cause that is going down the drain as we speak.... or as i speak... as i type... i'm an idiot.
le sigh.