Hmm
Last night I actually had a really good night for the first time in a while and per usual the Gaggle has to ruin it for me. I was invited to a party by Josh last night and I went and it was at Steph's ex-boyfriends apartment. I talked to her about it this morning to make sure it's ok with her and she said that it was, but I don't believe her. I was just in Nicole and Liz's room with them, Steph and Nat, and they asked about my night last night and where the party was and I told them it was at Christian's apartment and it was dead silence. The instant I left I know they were talking about me cuz it was silence. I fucking hate them. They hang out with my ex-boyfriend all the time and I've made it clear that it bothers me a lot, so forgive me if I'm just giving a taste of their own medicine. It's not like I'm going over there solely to see Christian. He's actually a really nice guy and easy to talk to, but I don't want the Gaggle to hate me. It's so hard to explain because I usually am so frustrated with them but I just don't want them to hate me because I don't like having enemies. I don't know why I keep holding onto them. They treat me like shit, anyways. Steph told me it was ok so I'm going to let myself believe that it's ok and if they have anything else to say about it then they can go fuck themselves.