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i'm afraid of what i dont know and i fear the things hidden from me. i despise this feeling and i cant stand the idea that its permanent. i pray that everything will go away and someday i'll be back to normal. i want the world to fall back into place and stop messing around. i hope for genuine smiles and real laughter when in the end all i feel is the sadness. i'm so far beyond understanding yet i dont think it will really hit me. numb is a good way to put it. angry is perhaps another. i keep thinkin i'll fall asleep and abruptly wake up from this. but this is whats real. reality is my inner demon.
and there are things ive made worse in my head.
rewind would be a nice feature.
i miss her.
and there are things ive made worse in my head.
rewind would be a nice feature.
i miss her.