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Homework is soo boring. I'm soo tired but I am having a superbowl Party and everyone is invited so tell me your comming so I can preorder the 50 pizzas!!!! lol I cut my hair don't be freaked when you see it though. I need a change in apperance, attitude, lifestyle whatever I can change I will. I need diffrent senery my life feels soo bland and empty now. What went wrong and where?? I feel trapped in a daily cycle and can't get out. I'm going crazzy depressed:{ I feel like there's this huge weight on my chest full of emotions and sadness and everything I feel goes into the bag and i don't feel it I'm a feelingless person with a bag of emotins drownding me. Why?? All I want to do is sleep and stayhome with my family so why wont it snow?? Why do I have to go to school??? I don't want to I want to be alone with my Mommy. Just me and her nothing elese. No interuptions (like the phone you sick perverts) no worries just me and my Mom. we use to be soo tight and she's the coolest Mom in the world but I don't know what happened. I feel like we woke up one day and were totaly apart. I can't even tell her that I feel this way!! but I want to I want to say Mom I want to talk but tthen she'll say about what. And I wont know what to talk about. All this stuff happens but its not that important or interesting but added together its killing me. It really is. I wanna stay home and cry with my Mommy thats all. I don't want to talk to anyone elese or anything I will just go through my day like a zombie then next day and the next then the years will go by and then I will be in hevan with my Mommy and God and everything will be okay. All my hurts and emotions will go away cuz God can do that and I'll be happy. *tear* That's all I want.