Holidays..
Ever had hot chocolate... that warms you up and makes you smile... Well thats what I tend to think of life rite now, warm and nothing but smiles. Its amazing how over a short course of time your life can dramatically change. Luckily for me, it improved. Who ever thought I would be out on my own this early, I certainly didnt. Well, I guess I am not entirely on my own, considering I do share a place with my BF.. I just keep thinking, this is crazy, is this my life. I mean I have been in love "young" love before. Where you hold hands, see each other when you dont have hw, and talk on the phone for hours. But, now I look at it and realize what kind of realationship is that. If you love someone in that scenario, how much. You dont know how you would react if you saw them every moment of everyday. You dont know what they do every minute. Things you may love in the beggining, if you ever really spent enough time with them you may grow to hate. I dont recognize that I even had a past, a grade 11 or 12, its all a blur. Have you ever woken up and fallen asleep beside someone forever. How when your with this person its the best feeling in the world. Because in all honesty they know you inside out for your flaws, and for your beauties. AND they still love you for all of them. Wow... I realize Im sharing my feelings.... but I have no reason to go on about this love. I just am so happy that someone understands me and can relate. I mean of course close friends do too... But on this level, at this time of my life, I think it is just what I need... ON another note, Life is short, and I think that this yr I have made the best of it. I really enjoy that I can focus my energies on something in my life now. Roots I guess you could say I have created.
On another note 6 days until christmas, another year has flown by. I hope it snows, haha (but not alot). I think I got everything I wanted for christmas, and I hope you all do too. Have a wonderful holidays everyone, and bring in the new years with nothing but smiles...resolutions....eh life is life make the best of your time, dont worry and make lists of what to change, be happy that you are alive, and work to be happy with who you are inside.
merry christmas.
xox
On another note 6 days until christmas, another year has flown by. I hope it snows, haha (but not alot). I think I got everything I wanted for christmas, and I hope you all do too. Have a wonderful holidays everyone, and bring in the new years with nothing but smiles...resolutions....eh life is life make the best of your time, dont worry and make lists of what to change, be happy that you are alive, and work to be happy with who you are inside.
merry christmas.
xox