I am really feeling down. The wider world is all going to hell in a handbasket and my life is taking a nosedive along with it. I am having a lot of trouble finding any point to existance at all atm. Everything is just so fucking pointless. Smile. Pretend everything is fine. No one is going to help even if you ask them. They are all too wound up in ( Read more... )

Not really been doing much this last week. Art has been happening. I've been downloading lots of stock images to work with and working in my photomanipulations. I havn't really felt like going out anywhere or doing anything and people have been annoying me more each time I interact with any of them. Put all together it seems likely that my ( Read more... )

My faith in humanity grows and wanes depending (usually) on how the people arround me act. (see my posts about the pathetic uys who persisted in making unwanted passes at me whilst I was working in the GAlleries shopping center) In general I have very low expectations of the huamn race. (the evidence from my life explains it) Certain people used to ( Read more... )

I've been kna depressed recently. I've had to double my 5htp dose and most of the time I'm keeping on top of it. Unfortunatly on Mon eve my laptop decided not to work any more and my old comp upstairs refused to acess the internet even though it was saying it was connected. Now my laptop is my main method of communicating with people in my life. It ( Read more... )

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I have just spent the last 1 1/2 hours trying to find somewhere that sells wholesale 5HTP. The only place that does as far as I can see is in Idaho ! and they don't have a price guide to oversea postage and have a HUGE disclaimer about the buyer being the one liable to pay all sorts of scary pharmacutical import taxes etc ( Read more... )

A memory has crossed through my head ( Read more... )

I have been wondering recently, if I might be dislexic,(or some suffering from some related condition).

As someone who works with young people I need to be aware of at least some of the signs and actions that might indicate further investigation in this direction.

I have noticed some of these thing in my own behaviour...
eg:
I spoonerise a LOTI'm ( Read more... )

I almost forgot. Because I was feeling down today I decided to buy myself some cloths to cheer me up. I bought a long bright pink summer skirt (horay! not black!) a little black top with purple glittery bits and a black top with long semi-transparent sleves that I think might look good with my black leather corset.

So it's monday again and I have to drag myself off to work ( Read more... )