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Everything's slipping away.
Things I thought I could handle--I'm coming to find that I can't. (or at least not as well as I thought I could.)
Things I thought I had a grasp on and I was ahead on--I don't and I'm not.
People who I've counted on and come to really care about are moving and won't be nearly as close or accessible. (meant figuratively and literally)
I feel like I'm falling and everybody is just kinda watching me go down slowly and still just passing by because I refuse to scream or say anything or when I do, I underexaggerate it all so they brush it off as not important. And I don't blame them at all because it's my fault.
I need to be more open to help and actually find a balance between me and other people. It started off as more to me and now, it's more them. I want some of that attention back. That attention that I used to go out of my way to get to the point where it was annoying. I just want someone to notice, to care, to want me to be there, to want me, to think about me when I'm not around, to call me just to say hi or ask me to hang out, etc.
I want to go back to a time when I could honestly smile at someone and be completely happy-no worries at all.
Things I thought I could handle--I'm coming to find that I can't. (or at least not as well as I thought I could.)
Things I thought I had a grasp on and I was ahead on--I don't and I'm not.
People who I've counted on and come to really care about are moving and won't be nearly as close or accessible. (meant figuratively and literally)
I feel like I'm falling and everybody is just kinda watching me go down slowly and still just passing by because I refuse to scream or say anything or when I do, I underexaggerate it all so they brush it off as not important. And I don't blame them at all because it's my fault.
I need to be more open to help and actually find a balance between me and other people. It started off as more to me and now, it's more them. I want some of that attention back. That attention that I used to go out of my way to get to the point where it was annoying. I just want someone to notice, to care, to want me to be there, to want me, to think about me when I'm not around, to call me just to say hi or ask me to hang out, etc.
I want to go back to a time when I could honestly smile at someone and be completely happy-no worries at all.