im about to cry..
i skipped school today. again! my mom's at my brother's babysitting for the night so i'm home alone! YAY!? too bad i have no Ido to sleep over. :(
i just got back from Shahar's... her parents r coming back home from Thiland tomorrow after 2 weeks of home alone.... god knows i've been kinda living there for a while..
so i got home and had kinda weird need to clean up my room. so i did. guess what i found?
TM04 video!
so i couldnt help it and i watched it. omg..... i wanna die. i miss u all so much! i have no words to describe how much i wanna go back. how i need those hugs and smiles and all of those stuff which are shown there. i dont know, i just need it. it meant so much for me, and still is. can u get it? we are writing our year book and they want to add something about this trip for me only cuz i could'nt stop talking about it for a long time, and still am. i was talking to Nitzan today, we were like blubbering each about his troubles and stuff and how we miss each other and started singging "i'm fucking away..." awww.... no one who was'nt there can understand it. i'm sick of being sick of here/ my life are'nt bad! dont get me wrong. but there was'nt and will never be a thing like this trip, and every time i think of it i wanna cry!
i have a syc test tomorrow that im planning to not show up for, good for me, right?
i need a vacation from here, from home! i need to "fuck away" for a long time only so i can miss all of this again