god i had the shittiest day yesterday
I had the WORST day yesterday.
So I ordered 2 pairs of *really cute* ballet flats and they still haven't come after a MONTH! I called them and it turns out the order never got sent to the shipping company. don't ever rely on Nordstrums.
It's hard enough when your friends broke up, but it's even harder when you are involved with it. Kush and I were talking, and he was saying about how hard it was when Kyle and I broke up, because he's been friends with Kyle for over 8 years, but he and I have gotten pretty close lately. Then when Kyle got mad at me for going to Kush with prom, Kush felt bad because we were fighting over him basically. It's the same with Sarah & Greg now. Greg's been my closest friend at OES for 3 years, but I just recently started getting close to Sarah. When they broke up, it was a bummer, but Greg told Sarah he had feelings for me. I don't know what to do because I sympathize for Sarah, but Greg's my very closest friend. Now there are all these rumors that Greg & I have hooked up, and I know every time I hang out with Greg it hurts Sarah because it only reminds her of those rumors, but at the same time, I'm graduating in 2 weeks...so I really want to spend as much time as possible with Greg!
Speaking of rumors, there's going to be a lunch meeting about Rumors and Gossip on Monday because I think it's a big problem at OES. It usually starts with some guys at a lunch table just joking around, but at a small school it spreads VERY quickly. I feel really attacked by them because in order for me to prove that they're not true, I would have to explain something really personal. For example, a bunch of people have been making fun of me for always having doctor's appointments and being "sick" and they think I'm just skipping. Nick T called me a hypochondriac, but I'm not exactly comfortable explaining that the reason why I was at the doctor's was because I was at a therapy appointment, or was having problems with ovarian cysts. When this stuff happens to me, I try to just ignore it and not let it bother me because the important thing is that I KNOW the truth...but now a certain rumor about me doing drugs got so widespread that people who actually care about me thought it was true and told the counselors. I had to talk to the councelors for like 4 hours about this, and it's taken care of, but it's still really stressful. I was kinda relieved that it's taken care of except when I left the counselor's office, Doug was like "Hey Tiga, I heard you're in trouble!" and I was like, "No", and then Kevin who was sitting away from us but still in hearing distance was like "What you got in trouble?" and i was like "NO!" and he was like "You totally are! You're totally getting DC-ed", and I was just thinking this is a perfect example of how rumors start and how they hurt poeple. I'm not mad at the girl who told the counselors, because she was actually concerned, I'm frustrated that it got to the point where it was "common knowledge" to everybody.
To top off my "super" day, I talked to Cindy about the dorms. One, it is physically uncomfortable at night. No exagerations, it is around 86 degrees every night in my room WITH THE WINDOW OPEN. Two, I don't feel comfortable there because when I was in the dorms before, I was always fencing and busy that I never got close to the dorm students, and while I like them, I feel really isolated from them. It doesn't bother me, as long as I have my day friends to hang out with. As a result, I spend the least amount of time in the dorms: I can stay out until 10 on the week days and I spend the weekends at people's houses. The only problem is, I never have time to be alone or do my hw, and I really want to just live with one of my friends. When I told Cindy this, she said "I can guarantee you that is not going to happen. Unless your mom would move out here again (which she wouldn't) there's no way the dorms are going to allow that."
UGGHHH...I'm so done with OES, but I also don't want to leave! I was so stressed and tired, that after having coffee with Kush, he dropped me off at 7:30 and I went to sleep, not waking up until 5th period the next day. FUCK!
So I ordered 2 pairs of *really cute* ballet flats and they still haven't come after a MONTH! I called them and it turns out the order never got sent to the shipping company. don't ever rely on Nordstrums.
It's hard enough when your friends broke up, but it's even harder when you are involved with it. Kush and I were talking, and he was saying about how hard it was when Kyle and I broke up, because he's been friends with Kyle for over 8 years, but he and I have gotten pretty close lately. Then when Kyle got mad at me for going to Kush with prom, Kush felt bad because we were fighting over him basically. It's the same with Sarah & Greg now. Greg's been my closest friend at OES for 3 years, but I just recently started getting close to Sarah. When they broke up, it was a bummer, but Greg told Sarah he had feelings for me. I don't know what to do because I sympathize for Sarah, but Greg's my very closest friend. Now there are all these rumors that Greg & I have hooked up, and I know every time I hang out with Greg it hurts Sarah because it only reminds her of those rumors, but at the same time, I'm graduating in 2 weeks...so I really want to spend as much time as possible with Greg!
Speaking of rumors, there's going to be a lunch meeting about Rumors and Gossip on Monday because I think it's a big problem at OES. It usually starts with some guys at a lunch table just joking around, but at a small school it spreads VERY quickly. I feel really attacked by them because in order for me to prove that they're not true, I would have to explain something really personal. For example, a bunch of people have been making fun of me for always having doctor's appointments and being "sick" and they think I'm just skipping. Nick T called me a hypochondriac, but I'm not exactly comfortable explaining that the reason why I was at the doctor's was because I was at a therapy appointment, or was having problems with ovarian cysts. When this stuff happens to me, I try to just ignore it and not let it bother me because the important thing is that I KNOW the truth...but now a certain rumor about me doing drugs got so widespread that people who actually care about me thought it was true and told the counselors. I had to talk to the councelors for like 4 hours about this, and it's taken care of, but it's still really stressful. I was kinda relieved that it's taken care of except when I left the counselor's office, Doug was like "Hey Tiga, I heard you're in trouble!" and I was like, "No", and then Kevin who was sitting away from us but still in hearing distance was like "What you got in trouble?" and i was like "NO!" and he was like "You totally are! You're totally getting DC-ed", and I was just thinking this is a perfect example of how rumors start and how they hurt poeple. I'm not mad at the girl who told the counselors, because she was actually concerned, I'm frustrated that it got to the point where it was "common knowledge" to everybody.
To top off my "super" day, I talked to Cindy about the dorms. One, it is physically uncomfortable at night. No exagerations, it is around 86 degrees every night in my room WITH THE WINDOW OPEN. Two, I don't feel comfortable there because when I was in the dorms before, I was always fencing and busy that I never got close to the dorm students, and while I like them, I feel really isolated from them. It doesn't bother me, as long as I have my day friends to hang out with. As a result, I spend the least amount of time in the dorms: I can stay out until 10 on the week days and I spend the weekends at people's houses. The only problem is, I never have time to be alone or do my hw, and I really want to just live with one of my friends. When I told Cindy this, she said "I can guarantee you that is not going to happen. Unless your mom would move out here again (which she wouldn't) there's no way the dorms are going to allow that."
UGGHHH...I'm so done with OES, but I also don't want to leave! I was so stressed and tired, that after having coffee with Kush, he dropped me off at 7:30 and I went to sleep, not waking up until 5th period the next day. FUCK!