This was an unpleasant day
Erin Hayley is so blunt and honest, and I love her to death, but I really didn't need to hear to what extent people talked shit behind my back for being the new girl and different. I just didn't. That shit's all over, even she said it doesn't happen any more, and I'd rather not know / forget that specific part of my life. I cried on and off all day, and everyone asked me what was wrong. And I couldn't say what it was. I think most of them think there's something wrong at home or something, but you know, you just can't say "I just heard about how much of a bitch you were last year." I wish, though, that it was still happening in a way, because then I could do something about it. All I can do now is be an emo about it.
And in a way, it was good to hear someone else say it out loud. I thought maybe I was paranoid. And since someone's actually talking about it openly, it's a more certain sign that that whole sentiment really is generally over. It just sucked, though, to hear it confirmed, to have to think about all that again.
I really need to get a handle on this emo thing. I know it's no crime to have bad emotions or to let them out, but I haven't had much good to say in awhile. Hopefully it's just a down time.
And in a way, it was good to hear someone else say it out loud. I thought maybe I was paranoid. And since someone's actually talking about it openly, it's a more certain sign that that whole sentiment really is generally over. It just sucked, though, to hear it confirmed, to have to think about all that again.
I really need to get a handle on this emo thing. I know it's no crime to have bad emotions or to let them out, but I haven't had much good to say in awhile. Hopefully it's just a down time.