Rant
I gave up love, life, and happiness. I smoke too much. I care too little. I don't give enough effort. I don't laugh enough. I don't work hard enough. I don't eat enough. I don't walk too much. I'm out of shape. I cry too much. I don't talk enough. I don't have the gas. I drink too much coffee. I don't have enough money. I don't have outfits that fit. I don't have a new car. My room mates are terrible. I want too much. I care about the wrong things. I give up too easily. I'm too depressed.
Fuck it all..... I can't do anything right. I can't do anything at all. The world and all who live in it owe me happy. I just want to disappear and not have to do this anymore. It's not worth it. Having to cry myself to sleep thinking of him and wondering when I will see him again, or if he even cares that i exist. I keep putting myself through this and it hurts too much. I'm to the point of giving up. The gossip and rumors make it worse. Well maybe if I just leave I'll be ok.
Fuck it all..... I can't do anything right. I can't do anything at all. The world and all who live in it owe me happy. I just want to disappear and not have to do this anymore. It's not worth it. Having to cry myself to sleep thinking of him and wondering when I will see him again, or if he even cares that i exist. I keep putting myself through this and it hurts too much. I'm to the point of giving up. The gossip and rumors make it worse. Well maybe if I just leave I'll be ok.