you can't always get what you want
i am really lonely right now, and yet again updating from my freezing cold basement. i've been really sick today too, no big surprise there. last thursday i got to see Emma's townhouse at VCU and go to the john mayer concert with her on friday to volunteer at the Nissan Pavilion. we caught the end of the show which was really cool and saw the band that played on the 2nd stage. this friday i'm going to ozzfest with jason so i can't wait for that. school starts again on monday though, so a lot of my attention has become diverted to the back to school motif. its downright depressing too because i just got out of summer school a few weeks ago. meh.
anyway, i'm beginning to get that feeling like i dont know what's really going on sometimes, like i'm out of the loop and short of looking retarded or becoming one of those spy kids i dont know what i am supposed to do. if information is not volunteered its not always because its something that will be detrimental, sometimes its just forgotten i guess. i can be forgetful too.
*You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you*
anyway, i'm beginning to get that feeling like i dont know what's really going on sometimes, like i'm out of the loop and short of looking retarded or becoming one of those spy kids i dont know what i am supposed to do. if information is not volunteered its not always because its something that will be detrimental, sometimes its just forgotten i guess. i can be forgetful too.
*You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you*