Jun 12, 2005 02:03
i've been meaning to update this thing for literally months, but never actually could. well, one time i updated but it didnt save and i never got around to typing everything i had to say again, but that doesn't count anyway. i dont know what it is about writing in here, its like i'm too proud to admit how i'm feeling, especially when i'm unhappy. i guess i just dont want any kind of documentation that anyone can pick up and rub in my face years from now to say "look tiffany at how unhappy you were in 2005". so for the record i'm not unhappy. i'm utterly and unmistakably completly miserable. south carolina is such a beautiful state, but so terribly lonely and full of people who are so deceitful i can't fathom residing here. but i do. so i am. i've given myself an ulcer since i moved here two and a half months ago and learned what the meaning of the word alone really is. the irony is that literally two streets down in the same neighborhood my dad's best friend's daughter who is about my age is living in a house by herself and calls home every night crying because she's so lonely. and here we sit. two streets away and worlds apart crying for the same reason in the same furnished living rooms over the same things and its like we're both too proud to break down and go home. i'm even too proud to call home anymore.
i'd rather walk the mall by myself and sit on the beach on my little piece of earth than admit i'm sad.
good god when did i make it so hard to trust anyone. and why am i in this handbasket and where are we going?
if you go down in the woods today you better go in disguise
if you go down in the woods today you're in for a big surprise
for every bear for ever there was
will gather there for certain because
today's the day the teddy bears have their picnic
picnic time for teddy bears
the little teddy bears are having a lovely time today
watch them catch them unaware
you'll see them picnic on their holiday
see them gayly gather bout'
you'll see them play and shout they never have any cares
at 6 o'clock their mommies and daddys will take them home to bed
because they're tired little teddy bears
beneath the trees where nobody sees
they'll hide and seek as long as they please
cause that's the way the teddy bears have their picnic
*a dream is a wish your heart makes*