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everything's changed. i talked to any tonight for an hour. its been three years since ive really hung out wiht her. i do this shit. why do i just push everyone away. i mean substance abuse has something to do with it im sure, but what is it about ME that makes me such a jerk? i never wanted to be such an asshole. but of course the innevitable is always inevitable. damnit. that word is such a bitch.