ugh.
That's right, I did not go to class tonight. It is my first and LAST time I will miss class. PERIOD! I hate that I didn't go but I didn't get home until almost 1am last night and well I just didn't feel up to it.
Today is not a good day for me. I wish I was anywhere but here and had any life but my own.
This weekend was really nice. Well, for the most part. I hate that things are either really good, ok, or not that great with Spencer and myself...ALL the time. What I mean is, it's never just PERFECT! For example, I was having a great weekend until he made the comment:
"Babe, can you promise me one thing while I'm gone?"
"Don't put on any more weight or else I won't want to be intimate with you."
WOW! Can't you just hear the fireworks!?
This to me says I am getting fat, which he did say my body has changed since we started dating (hello....I was 16, now I am 21!). Then he tried to recover and say that I am not fat now he just doesn't want me to put on "any more".
Things like this hurt my feelings. =/
I know I have put on some weight but NO guy is going to tell me if I put on any more he won't be intimate with me. What am I his little sex slave? I will not allow myself to get fat because IIIIIIIIIII do not want to be!
Other than that one statement, things were good.
Now I am sad because I am home and away from him and back to this daily grind that I hate. Ugh.....I hate complaining and being depressed but I am not "digging" my life today! =(
Today is not a good day for me. I wish I was anywhere but here and had any life but my own.
This weekend was really nice. Well, for the most part. I hate that things are either really good, ok, or not that great with Spencer and myself...ALL the time. What I mean is, it's never just PERFECT! For example, I was having a great weekend until he made the comment:
"Babe, can you promise me one thing while I'm gone?"
"Don't put on any more weight or else I won't want to be intimate with you."
WOW! Can't you just hear the fireworks!?
This to me says I am getting fat, which he did say my body has changed since we started dating (hello....I was 16, now I am 21!). Then he tried to recover and say that I am not fat now he just doesn't want me to put on "any more".
Things like this hurt my feelings. =/
I know I have put on some weight but NO guy is going to tell me if I put on any more he won't be intimate with me. What am I his little sex slave? I will not allow myself to get fat because IIIIIIIIIII do not want to be!
Other than that one statement, things were good.
Now I am sad because I am home and away from him and back to this daily grind that I hate. Ugh.....I hate complaining and being depressed but I am not "digging" my life today! =(