It's a new day/to look at you

[tiffgirl01]

Midnight. Monday Morning. School in 7 hours. All I can think about is what will it be like when I meet your eyes.
Your face. Will I ignor you? Look away? Or walk right up to you?

"It's a new day"

This song. The sound track to my life.

I have no idea how I'll get through this. But I'll get through. It'll be easy, academically. I've done all my work.

I love you.

I'll see my friends. I'll breathe again.

Valerie says I have to be strong. Being strong implies a falseness I can't handel.

I'll force my smile.
I'll go out.
I'll live again.
I'll learn again.

Get over you.

I must get over you.

"It's a... It's a... It's a...New Day."

I woke up. I lived one more night.

"It's New Day"

I wonder will you notice me? Will you look me in my eyes? Will you see the smoke?

I wanted to text you. I didn't. I don't want you to think I'm ok with this. I'm not.

I never was.

I can't handle this. I can't handel this. I can't handel....

Just breathe.

You act. You breathe. You continue to lie.

To love in high school is to see blindly.

"It's a... new day"

I cannot look into your eyes.

I cannot let my self feel.

I cannot let my pride fail me.

You're actions kill.
My tears are still fresh as the morning's dew.

You're staying... at least for another day.

I'm trying, I really am.

Doesn't it seem like I'm always trying?

I was trying to love you like you loved me...
Now I'm trying to stop loving you at all.
I'm trying to forgive,
but trying not forget what we were.
I'm trying to get closure,
but I'm trying to keep myself from the truth.

Dam this stage! Dam this house!

I'm screaming to get out of this skin.

Someone. Save me.