emotion is dead.
"In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you and in your head where it dwells, I'd give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it, let's walk away from this hell."
I don't know how to not feel like this anymore. it's getting pretty old.
I just want to be happy.
I am on the surface, but deep down I'm not. I don't think I ever have been.
I wish there was a way for me to overcome these insecurities that I have. I wish everyone could see Tiffani. The Tiffani that only I know is there. I just don't know how to let that person out.
I'm listening to the Juliana Theory. it's perfect for my mood. and I havent listened to it in a long time.
"Why can't you make up your mind...everything you, everytime, every word you say...if I told you this was killing, would you would you stop?"
I have so many things I want to write, so much I want to get off my chest, I just don't know how to get it out. I've gotten used to putting up a big front lately.
"I laughed the loudest who'd of known."
I don't know why it's so hard for me to express myself.
I know it worries people sometimes. and I don't know why I feel like I need something else to portray my feelings.
I'm the type of person who shouldn't drink alcohol.
there are two tiffani's in that situation.
*Sober Tiffani. who is shy, and hides every little emotion or feeling from everyone, who puts up this big front and is full of insecurities.
*Drunk Tiffani. who is outgoing, friendly, not afraid to speak up in any situation, will say what they're feeling, and not hide anything.
I like Drunk Tiffani, although she's also my worst enemy.
That's how alcohol dependencies start. I think I might have an alcohol dependency.
I wonder if people can ever tell that I'm hiding my feelings.
I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love
Wow. I want a boy to write a song for me. something sad and sappy, like a jamisonparker song.
Just be in love and I’ll kiss you like you’ve always wanted
Just close your eyes, I’ll still live as if I’m dying
If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me
I guess what I'm feeling right now is unnoticed, unappreciated, unloved...and over all sorry for myself.
I think it's good for everyone to cry once in a while. I havent in a long time. I think I'm afraid to, because if I do, it's going to be a big release of my feelings and I'm just going to cry and cry and cry. it's sad. and I'm pathetic.
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I know I don't need a boyfriend to be happy. but I guess, me being me, I like having that security, that feeling of knowing that person feels exactly the same way for me as I feel for them. I just want that again. I'm strong. being single is fun, but I want a relationship again I guess.
I want a different kind than before though. I want one with TRUST. I want to be trusted.
I never had an issue trusting anyone. I'm too trusting sometimes. but I basically want someone call mine, and I want someone to call me theres.
it's lame. I know. I really need to stop caring/dwelling on this stuff.
"you said you know me, you know nothing at all.
you said you hate me, well believe me I hate you too."
goodnight.
I don't know how to not feel like this anymore. it's getting pretty old.
I just want to be happy.
I am on the surface, but deep down I'm not. I don't think I ever have been.
I wish there was a way for me to overcome these insecurities that I have. I wish everyone could see Tiffani. The Tiffani that only I know is there. I just don't know how to let that person out.
I'm listening to the Juliana Theory. it's perfect for my mood. and I havent listened to it in a long time.
"Why can't you make up your mind...everything you, everytime, every word you say...if I told you this was killing, would you would you stop?"
I have so many things I want to write, so much I want to get off my chest, I just don't know how to get it out. I've gotten used to putting up a big front lately.
"I laughed the loudest who'd of known."
I don't know why it's so hard for me to express myself.
I know it worries people sometimes. and I don't know why I feel like I need something else to portray my feelings.
I'm the type of person who shouldn't drink alcohol.
there are two tiffani's in that situation.
*Sober Tiffani. who is shy, and hides every little emotion or feeling from everyone, who puts up this big front and is full of insecurities.
*Drunk Tiffani. who is outgoing, friendly, not afraid to speak up in any situation, will say what they're feeling, and not hide anything.
I like Drunk Tiffani, although she's also my worst enemy.
That's how alcohol dependencies start. I think I might have an alcohol dependency.
I wonder if people can ever tell that I'm hiding my feelings.
I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love
Wow. I want a boy to write a song for me. something sad and sappy, like a jamisonparker song.
Just be in love and I’ll kiss you like you’ve always wanted
Just close your eyes, I’ll still live as if I’m dying
If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me
I guess what I'm feeling right now is unnoticed, unappreciated, unloved...and over all sorry for myself.
I think it's good for everyone to cry once in a while. I havent in a long time. I think I'm afraid to, because if I do, it's going to be a big release of my feelings and I'm just going to cry and cry and cry. it's sad. and I'm pathetic.
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I know I don't need a boyfriend to be happy. but I guess, me being me, I like having that security, that feeling of knowing that person feels exactly the same way for me as I feel for them. I just want that again. I'm strong. being single is fun, but I want a relationship again I guess.
I want a different kind than before though. I want one with TRUST. I want to be trusted.
I never had an issue trusting anyone. I'm too trusting sometimes. but I basically want someone call mine, and I want someone to call me theres.
it's lame. I know. I really need to stop caring/dwelling on this stuff.
"you said you know me, you know nothing at all.
you said you hate me, well believe me I hate you too."
goodnight.