rambling
Hey everyone..Im feelin kinda...I dont really know how Im feeling actually....its like I had a really busy Summer and I liked that....but it kinda makes me sad cuz me and JD have been datin almost the whole Summer...and we have only hung out with each other 2 times...I mean the reason for that is cuz he's grounded but I dont know I just miss him soooo much...I haven't talked to him since I got back from Scotland I just wish he would call me or something...but I guess he dont know Im back :( .I just really love JD and I wish me and him could see each other more often. I sometimes feel like Im just this horrible gf cuz me and JD were really happy when we dated the 1st time and I just ended it....and Im not really sure why.I just did it cuz like I remember a week before I broke up with him it was rafting...and me and him got into a fight there well he said something and it got me really upset and we were almost gonna break up but I told him I really didn't wanna break up...sooo I really dont understand how my brain works...Im not really sure what happened the 2nd time we dated...and then the 3rd time I think that one was kinda a mistake cuz thats when the whole Candise thing happened...and now its the 4th time but Im REALLY happy I had my doubts a lil at 1st but right now I just know JD is the one I wanna be with and I dont wanna lose him again.
okay yeah I know that was A LOT of rambling but hey thats what I do best....
On other news I think Mandys mad at me...Im not really sure what the reason is....something bout me not telling her things...but really there isn't anything to tell I mean with the Mike thing...I wasn't planning on telling her...and then I was gonna tell her...but Chelo kinda told her..when she said she wouldn't so then of course Mandy got mad at me...and theres like NOTHING I can do about it its like I really wanna make things okay again...but Mandy wont tell me how...I just really want my friend back...she was really someone I could talk to bout things and I could trust her not to say anything to anyone...but then I guess when I wasn't telling her things....that was when we weren't really talking to each other much cuz she wasn't on the computer much or I wasn't on the computer much and like when we would talk..the things that happeded to me when we didn't talk....it just wasn't really on my mind...but I swear on my life that if I could go back in time I would change that...I would remind myself bout everything I didn't tell Mandy...I think theres only 2 things...I think it was the Mike thing and the thing with Matt after we broke up...I think thats all....but I did eventually tell Mandy bout the Matt thing before anyone else said anything to her...I wish I could call her right now....but its kinda only 7am and Im pretty sure she's not up sooo yeah...I just really dont know what to do anymore...maybe when school starts I can earn Mandys friendship and trust back...but if I do earn it...Im gonna try my hardest not to lose it....well Im gonna go ttyl's byes
<3Tiffany
okay yeah I know that was A LOT of rambling but hey thats what I do best....
On other news I think Mandys mad at me...Im not really sure what the reason is....something bout me not telling her things...but really there isn't anything to tell I mean with the Mike thing...I wasn't planning on telling her...and then I was gonna tell her...but Chelo kinda told her..when she said she wouldn't so then of course Mandy got mad at me...and theres like NOTHING I can do about it its like I really wanna make things okay again...but Mandy wont tell me how...I just really want my friend back...she was really someone I could talk to bout things and I could trust her not to say anything to anyone...but then I guess when I wasn't telling her things....that was when we weren't really talking to each other much cuz she wasn't on the computer much or I wasn't on the computer much and like when we would talk..the things that happeded to me when we didn't talk....it just wasn't really on my mind...but I swear on my life that if I could go back in time I would change that...I would remind myself bout everything I didn't tell Mandy...I think theres only 2 things...I think it was the Mike thing and the thing with Matt after we broke up...I think thats all....but I did eventually tell Mandy bout the Matt thing before anyone else said anything to her...I wish I could call her right now....but its kinda only 7am and Im pretty sure she's not up sooo yeah...I just really dont know what to do anymore...maybe when school starts I can earn Mandys friendship and trust back...but if I do earn it...Im gonna try my hardest not to lose it....well Im gonna go ttyl's byes
<3Tiffany