Jan 4th 2008
Overall Mood: Stressed / Anxious / Jittery
Specific Behavior: Left on time to get to work this morning, which caused a beginning of a stress free day. All that changed when I tried to handle a tech call about a P900 Printer that wasn't working with the terminal. Steve was busy with Dave again, what a surprise. Jack overheard the phone conversation and he then he came behind me and said "Why isn't the knowledge base open, why was I putting them on hold, Why wasn't I troubleshooting, Why I was acting completely unprofessional, etc" He then continued to threaten my job once again. But he's all talk because if that were the case I would be fired already. That comment is kept to myself. After that I was a little shooken' up, and a little stressed out but I knew I couldn't blame him because this company has a reputation to uphold, and by acting unprofessional on the phone with the word "Um," said a couple of times gives the company a bad image. If I owned the company and an associate did that, I would be pretty upset. I can't blame him at all. After he yelled at me, he came back a couple minutes later, and talked to me and explained why he flipped. I did appreciate that a lot. Coming from him thats almost a compliment. And I completely understand until I show him I can handle this tech position, I will not get my hours back, so I need to work hard at handling these tech problems better. Got paid today, so I filled up my tank, bought a carton of cigarettes and pizza. Probably because I was a little upset from work, my impulse spending caused me to buy the pizza. Not to upset about the carton of cigarettes, it was only 66 bucks, and it will take care of two weeks, so I wont have to buy another pack until I get paid again. Now I have 270 to play around with, and that's fine. I need to go out tomorrow, and get deodorant, that clean and clear acne kit and chocolate.
Thought Patterns: Society, money, my financial situation, why I can't handle a simple tech call without getting yelled at, why I can't do anything right according to my boss, and how it needs to be my personal goal to get it right, and my job, will I still have one?
Productivity: Got a new debit card because my other one got stolen. Luckily no charges went to the account yet, must have just gotten taken. Got gas, pizza and cigarettes.
Sleep Patterns: Slept like a baby through most of the night once in weeks. Maybe manic mode is subsiding. Hopefully.
Relationships: Sex drive pulsating need Bill now!
Spending: Tank of gas, $30, Carton of cigarettes, $66.77, Pizza, $21.56. Knowing I am broke? Priceless!
Family: Actually today my mother was really pissing me off. Telling me that she needs the money I owe her, and this and that. Hounding me about creditors calling the house phone. And what I am doing with these bills. Then she managed to repeat this series of questions for almost a half hour before I told her to fuck off. I asked nicely for her to stop multiple times, and she just kept going and really getting to me, so I snapped. Then she asked me why I was so snippy with her for another ten minutes before I got up and walked away, before I slapped her something fierce.
Job: Explained above.
Responsibilities: Failed at my job today, took care of the debit card issue, that's pretty much it.
Eating Habits: 3 Garlic Knots, and 3 of those Garlic Knots with the meat inside and a slice of pizza. Totally overate.
Specific Behavior: Left on time to get to work this morning, which caused a beginning of a stress free day. All that changed when I tried to handle a tech call about a P900 Printer that wasn't working with the terminal. Steve was busy with Dave again, what a surprise. Jack overheard the phone conversation and he then he came behind me and said "Why isn't the knowledge base open, why was I putting them on hold, Why wasn't I troubleshooting, Why I was acting completely unprofessional, etc" He then continued to threaten my job once again. But he's all talk because if that were the case I would be fired already. That comment is kept to myself. After that I was a little shooken' up, and a little stressed out but I knew I couldn't blame him because this company has a reputation to uphold, and by acting unprofessional on the phone with the word "Um," said a couple of times gives the company a bad image. If I owned the company and an associate did that, I would be pretty upset. I can't blame him at all. After he yelled at me, he came back a couple minutes later, and talked to me and explained why he flipped. I did appreciate that a lot. Coming from him thats almost a compliment. And I completely understand until I show him I can handle this tech position, I will not get my hours back, so I need to work hard at handling these tech problems better. Got paid today, so I filled up my tank, bought a carton of cigarettes and pizza. Probably because I was a little upset from work, my impulse spending caused me to buy the pizza. Not to upset about the carton of cigarettes, it was only 66 bucks, and it will take care of two weeks, so I wont have to buy another pack until I get paid again. Now I have 270 to play around with, and that's fine. I need to go out tomorrow, and get deodorant, that clean and clear acne kit and chocolate.
Thought Patterns: Society, money, my financial situation, why I can't handle a simple tech call without getting yelled at, why I can't do anything right according to my boss, and how it needs to be my personal goal to get it right, and my job, will I still have one?
Productivity: Got a new debit card because my other one got stolen. Luckily no charges went to the account yet, must have just gotten taken. Got gas, pizza and cigarettes.
Sleep Patterns: Slept like a baby through most of the night once in weeks. Maybe manic mode is subsiding. Hopefully.
Relationships: Sex drive pulsating need Bill now!
Spending: Tank of gas, $30, Carton of cigarettes, $66.77, Pizza, $21.56. Knowing I am broke? Priceless!
Family: Actually today my mother was really pissing me off. Telling me that she needs the money I owe her, and this and that. Hounding me about creditors calling the house phone. And what I am doing with these bills. Then she managed to repeat this series of questions for almost a half hour before I told her to fuck off. I asked nicely for her to stop multiple times, and she just kept going and really getting to me, so I snapped. Then she asked me why I was so snippy with her for another ten minutes before I got up and walked away, before I slapped her something fierce.
Job: Explained above.
Responsibilities: Failed at my job today, took care of the debit card issue, that's pretty much it.
Eating Habits: 3 Garlic Knots, and 3 of those Garlic Knots with the meat inside and a slice of pizza. Totally overate.