oh, my face right now...
Eamon is back in my life full force.
I love him SO MUCH.
But this post isn't going in the direction one would imagine. Unless you know Eamon and my crazy relationship. In which case it makes perfect sense.
I love him so much, and it pains me deeply to see him at the emotional state hes in at the moment. But, I am doing what I can, being there for him. And the fact that he even admits that he is grateful for me and glad to have me around, especially to the extent that I am, makes me a little happy. Ok, a LOT happy, but it is negated slightly by the fact that he is hurting. I just want him to be happy, as happy as he makes me feel.
For instance, when he calls and I see his name on the caller ID, I smile really big, maybe make a girly noise, THEN answer it. Upon hanging up, especially if the conversation ends in plans to get together, I smile, squeal and do a little jumping-dance. BUT, I say that to say this- this is the first time I have had this reaction to someone that WASN'T a romantic scenario. It is just that he is that amazing and I am that glad to have him in my life.
I am happy. This feels good.
I love him SO MUCH.
But this post isn't going in the direction one would imagine. Unless you know Eamon and my crazy relationship. In which case it makes perfect sense.
I love him so much, and it pains me deeply to see him at the emotional state hes in at the moment. But, I am doing what I can, being there for him. And the fact that he even admits that he is grateful for me and glad to have me around, especially to the extent that I am, makes me a little happy. Ok, a LOT happy, but it is negated slightly by the fact that he is hurting. I just want him to be happy, as happy as he makes me feel.
For instance, when he calls and I see his name on the caller ID, I smile really big, maybe make a girly noise, THEN answer it. Upon hanging up, especially if the conversation ends in plans to get together, I smile, squeal and do a little jumping-dance. BUT, I say that to say this- this is the first time I have had this reaction to someone that WASN'T a romantic scenario. It is just that he is that amazing and I am that glad to have him in my life.
I am happy. This feels good.