Something, Anything At All
i'm scared.
and even more afraid to say this out loud.
i'm worried that there's nothing there.
and by "there" i mean inside of me.
i am numb.
i feel nothing.
i am nothing.
it's been so long since i've felt anything.
so long since i've lived.
like truly lived.
i've lost bits and pieces of myself.
some fell off.
others i simply left.
after a while, i realized:
i don't exactly have much more of myself to lose.
i want to feel something.
ANYTHING.
there's nothing there.
i'm empty.
utterly and completely empty.
and that terrifies me.
and even more afraid to say this out loud.
i'm worried that there's nothing there.
and by "there" i mean inside of me.
i am numb.
i feel nothing.
i am nothing.
it's been so long since i've felt anything.
so long since i've lived.
like truly lived.
i've lost bits and pieces of myself.
some fell off.
others i simply left.
after a while, i realized:
i don't exactly have much more of myself to lose.
i want to feel something.
ANYTHING.
there's nothing there.
i'm empty.
utterly and completely empty.
and that terrifies me.