Oct 15, 2009 02:19
There are very few things in this world that I can tell you I know for sure at the tender age of 20. But it seems that as soon as I find both clarity and serenity in my life I'm catapulted into a world that has completely gone askew. I wish I could say that there are so many lessons I've learned in life; but I'm not too keen on being a liar. There are things that I've seen and done, regretfully, and yet still continue or begin to do. The end result is usually the same: I end up feeling ruefully dejected and unworthy of all the great things in life I want.
I wish I had a list of all the great things in life to be looked forward to. I even wish I had the strength and the audacity to lie and say I did; but it's not in my nature. I can only tell you of the mishaps and unfortunate events because those, my friend, are what I'm acquainted with. It seems those are the experiences that I have come to know so well. I may not be able to offer guidance or advice concerning the matters, but I think the simple feat of me discussing them may give you comfort in knowing you're not alone out there.
This I Know: someone exceptionally important to you will pass. It may be a loved one or a significant other. But either way the pain will still be overwhelming. The only thing you've to do is not let your grief consume you. Your loved one loved you because of a light that shone within you; don't let their passing take that from you. They'd want to continue to see you shine for others.
This I Know: there will come a time when who you are and who you need to be come to crossroads. When you hit this fork in the road, all maps are a bust. There is no right or wrong turn here and no one can take your hand and lead you. The choice is yours and yours alone. Honesty and acceptance are key factors here: you must be able to be honest with yourself and be able to accept those truths no matter how hurtful. Self-reflection is perhaps the most difficult of tasks to complete.
This I Know: a friend or lover will leave your life. And everytime it happens, it's just as painful as the last. I think the demise of these relationships is so painful because they're ones that were usually entered into by choice. When it doesn't materialized into one of the great love stories or companionships we're force-fed from childhood one can't help but feel brutally rebuffed as that person left by choice; and you were not that choice.
This I Know: you will make many a mistake(s) in your life. And there will be at least one nosy, little shrew of a person who will never let you forget it. As long as you've owned up to it and made the proper amends there's not much else that you can do. Hold your head high and keep trottin' along; preferably in a great pair of black leather, stiletto ankle boots that are all the rage this season.
This I Know: what's goes around really does come around. Karma is a bitch and it really exists. Considering I don't really think "what goes around comes around" is a far great enough warning, I think mine will do: "Be careful of what you set in motion". It's kind of a play on Newton's first law: an object in motion will stay in motion until an outside forces acts upon it. Translation: you set evil and malice in motion, it'll keep going and probably run you over.
This I Know: at some point in time your life is going to completely fall apart. The only thing to do is to pick up the rubble and shards and start building again. It's that simple and complicated.
This I Know For Sure: the pain and sorrow in life comes in varying degrees and lasts for differential amounts of time. No matter what be the cause of the aforementioned pain and sorrow my stance in coping with it remains the same: You have to build a bridge over the pain with all the things that life hasn't taken from you.