OMG!!!!
This really confuses me.......you have no idea........So the last few days have been different. I don't know what to think, nor say. I feel like an ass b/c i destroyed her, and also because i honestly do not remember talking to her last night (hung out in Farmington @ Brents). I DO NOT wanna hurt her but what am i supposed to do? drag things out and then say something when she is EVEN MORE attached? I guess i'm just afraid of hurting her in the long run if things don't work out, Rach is right about that. I love spending time with her, i love hanging out at night, and i love to see her smile. It KILLS me to know that she is hurting as much as she is. I wanna do those cute lil things for her still but i can't, it'll be weird. The way she speaks to me really does make the hair on the back of my neck stand up; and b/c of that i really couldn't see "us" working out... Maybe its cuz she lives in a city as opposed to me living in the woods (BFE). She is such a GREAT person, a person who would go to many lengths just to please someone else, just to see that smile, and just to be there for them. I like that but... grrr.... i dunno, i'm rambling. I don't want a relationship right now BUT i want to still be friends with her, how do i say that? [even tho you will be reading this later] I didn't think it would be fair to hang out like we did and doing the things we did when i didn't like her as much as she liked me, SHE LIKED ME THAT MUCH, not that i didn't like her at all, i liked her a lot. I'm a nice guy (so i think) and i wouldn't wanna intentionally hurt someone, especially Tiff. She's such a great person. Well i think thats enough of that, it makes me sad to think that i may have lost a friendship. Call me once you've read this Tiff. ............Seriously are you being serious???? Well I cant tell you that we will or wont be friends. Andy can you help me out here on this one haha. So yea we were just talking an dhe told me he was scared......I out too much drama for me!!!! Nighty-night sweet dreamz xoxo muah <3 Tiff