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I'm in the worst mood ever and I don't even know why??? I guess its just one of those days. So I didn't go to be until 4:45am and I slept till 1pm, thats crazy. I haven't done that in a long time lol. This whole scraping booking thing (I'm making my mom a scrap book for x-mas) is a really long process. It took me forever last night and I only got 3 pages done!!! just three thats it haha. So I got to go to the demtist today :o), sorry I really like my teeth (Im a teeth person) but yea there all pretty and clean now. I was sitting there and my hygentist was like are you wearing make-up and i responded with no. Shes like oh my gosh your so pretty...haha it was funny, with my mouth wide open I some how managed to say Thank you!! mmm...rice is soo yummy. Guess what??? My 19th b-day is in 3 months!!!! Yippie I'm so excited. Here we come Canada!!!! Sarah your b-day is in 2 months :o)
Well I think I mightjust have it figured out..... I think I should let go of my feelings and just do what I've been doing since Tim and I broke up. There is no point in trying to be anythinh with anyone because it neevr seems to work. Someone always gets hurt. I don't want that someone to be me!! He's not into me the same way I'm into him, so I can see the someone getting hurt will be me. But yet I really don't understand it...."I like you soo much...please dont break my heart!" Mixed signals I don't know, Im really lost in all this and its not good. now that I know I "really" like him, its not just a like (like how Ive felt about past boys) its a really like and I feel that I shouldn't feel like that. I dono what to do. Like I didn't even feel this way about Tim. When we hang out I still get butterflies in my tummy, and when he calls I get all excited and smiley. When he looks at me I feel on top of the world. All I can do is smile. I got it bad, I really do. These are feeling I normally dont have. When Tim called me I never got excited, and butterflies what were those??? This is crazy, I m going to get screwed over I feel it. What am I to do??? Should I back out now or stay......
Christmas is going to be here in 4 days!! Yippie, Im really excited to open presents. My Grandma (my real dads mom) called me yesterday and invited me over. Its kind of werid all of the sudden that side of the family wants something to do with me. Ive been around for 18 years and tney never attempted but now its like nothing like they've been calling me all the time. I mean Im glad they called but its still a little odd.Im sure there is a catch somewhere. I asked my lil sister (Amanda, my dads other daughter) what she wanted for x-mas and she told me she just wanted to see me on x-mas an d for us to be closer. How cute is that? But Its odd b/c when i we were younger we were closer but over the years we just drifted apart I guess. Well we'll see how everything goes. Im the meantime I have one last exam tomorrow and I think im going to start studying now since I have a few things to take care of.
Tomorrow is my last day of school!!! Im soo glad my 1st semester of college is finally over. If anyone wants to hang out give me a call. P.S there might be a new year's eve party at my house....maybe even one before New years. Give me a holla!! :oD xoxo muah <3, Tiffany