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Life is great and im loving it.....Im high on life!!! But I do miss the days when nothing mattered. You could do what you wanted, school was easy, boys didnt matter, you looked cute no matter what, you could eat and never gian weight. QWhat happened to those days? I miss them. I miss the days of hanging in the hallway during our 5 min passing time then rushing to class with 30 seconds left. What does our future hold for all of us?? Will Jen and Sar always be my friend (I must say that Im reaslly glad we've gotten alot closer.....I have soo much fun when we hang out!!! Im here for you always). Where will I be in 5 years?? What does the future hold.......Its crazy how just a year ago we were in highschool......Big seniors at the top of the school....Waitng for graduation to come. Now were out in the big world with suprises that lay ahead. Its weird to read what was written on the back of senior pics......Jen everytime I read yours my eyes get a little wet......Sarah I <3 you. I think o have fears in life but i dont know why. Ill be sucessful: I'm smart, I've got the potential to be pretty, I'm outgoing, I never give up, and I get what I want. What am I soo afraid of??? Im not even sure why im letting all this out. I think there are things I want to change about my past and I know I cant change them. So if I know that I cant change them, why are they bothering me??? If you havent talked to me in months and you blew me off why do you call me???? Did you forget that you hurt me.......or do you realize what you had and you know that you dont have it now? The chances of you getting it back.....probley not good for you. Yea it would be nice to hang out, but that would make you happy. Why would i want to make you happy. That would just be the dumbest thing i did. Then I have the guy who call me sweet<3, get off of it. Im not your sweet<3 and I dont like you!!!!!! Your uguly haha. I know that was mean but its true. Well I talked to him last night.......we havent talked since x-mas break. No Grandvalley, its Eastern now. I was really happy to hear that, but then again I think its just going to set me up for rejection. I saw pics from SB OMG hes soo fucken HOTT. To me is his everything that i want. He's athletic (cares about his looks, dresses good), smart, knows what he wants in life, has a head on his shoulders, honest, swwet, fucking hott as hell!!!! Grr....It makes me soo mad b/c I dont think he has an interest in me at all.....but he did call twice last night to hang out. Hmm haha :o)Am I too picky??? Do I have the right to be the way I am.....I want what I want and nothing less. Why is it soo hard for me to find someone. What is it that i want?? Im not even sure i know. Haha, maybe I should figure that one out. Plus Im never going to understand guys anyways so why does it matter. Well life has been fun. Ive been hanging out with Sar and Jen alot.....we always know how to make fun!!! P.S we need to hang out more often. Extreme was boring but we had a blast... then who knows what happened. Friday was margritaville.....what a blast!!! Drunk off my ass haha. Can't wait to get those pics back. Did some crazy things that night haha. I <3 life. Saturday....work as usual...boring went ot TGI frifays w/ Brandon and Steph P. Brandon your weird. Steph Im going to laugh always b/c of you. Sunday longest day of my life!!! Worked all day made no $ what soo ever. I was pissed. Then dumb ass people come over w/out calling. Went to Jason house in BFe for a Red Robin get together had a few drinks....by 3 i was ready to go I was soooo tired. Moday I couldnt even wake up to do my lil sisters hair!!! :o( what a horrible sister I am. But then at 11 I had to get the twins ready for pics!! Aww they looked so cute. I <3 my lil sisters there are way too adorable! Monday was a day of stress and errands. Went out to dinner w/ soony and filled out my app for logans. That was quite interesting, but a lot of fun :op. Then I finally got to go to my apartment. huh..it was great. I dont even rememebr what we did but i know it was fun haha. Tuesday long day of school, working out and sorority. Pike Pledge auction......there went my last $35. Im broke as hell now!!! I have no $ at all, not even joking im in the hole. But i think my purchase might be a wise one. Wednesday...easy day. Homeowrk, class, homework, workout, homework,.... Hang out watch newlyweds and ashlee....to be continued I was mad!!! Talked to him...he called twice!!! Studying, sleep. Wake up late the next morning, wait for mossners slow ass.... who studys a 1/2 before an exam?? Well he did. Easy exam that made me happy. Work out back to Ut do some online homeowrk. Class butts and gutts, I was feeling it. Class again oh shit we had to write an in class essay... that was great.Im not even sure if my essay made since haha. We'll see when I get it back. Now im back here, deciding on if i want to tak ea nap or not....Then its night time yes!!! Its going to be a blast and I might even get to see him!!! That will surely put a smile on my face. Until next time xoxo muah ~~Tiffany~~ My roomies are the greatest!!!!!!