what exactly am i expecting...
you smashed this part of my heart. how are you going to mend it.
how cliche
this is the first time i was so lost in this game of friendship. i don't know what i can do/what i want to do.
1. i hate the way you are acting so discreet with him. what for? making us all feeling weird and you just want to push the blame to us
2. if you are looking for long term relationship, you should jolly well know that this is not the time. In the first place, if you all are not together now, we can be the clqiue for gazillion years, if after 2 years you 2 are still in love. great! I'll be convinced that you all are meant to be and will definitely work out. but wth, he hasnt even gone army. you are gonna go uni. 2 diff worlds. probability of breaking up just rocketed. WAIT. you were saying long term or 1 week again?
3. exchanging eternal friendship happiness for temporal relationship happiness. deal if it seems worth it to you.
4. you are just making me feel super uncomfy.
its not like i m feeling super uncomfy because you all are 2 couples. but the problem lies in the fact that you are behaving weirdly. both of you are doing things weirdly. you are no longer the jia i kow. people change fast. fine. maybe this marks the end?
many times i m so convinced i should just give up this friendship. but i know i have grown this certain level of intimacy with you that causes this friendship hard to be torn apart just like that. thus, i really dont know how.
however when i m with you, i feel weird. really weird. like there is this thing abt you that shoots me ten miles away from you. this thing of you that i cannot really name it. i think about all that you told me, at this moment all of it just seems so superficial, so shallow. you can say that i m skeptical. but you just dont give me the same feelin anymore.
[sidetrack: i m really pissed with yc. he just loves shouting at me for no reason.but...so insignificant:| he should know that i hate people raising voice/rude to me]