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so...im getting restless...i REALLY REALLY dont want to go back to school but i am restless because everyone else is already back and im just being a bum literally sleeping until 2 in the afternoon and like MAYBE running a few errands if i can even think of an errand to run haha i want to work out like everyday but i hate GOING to work out by myself...i really shoulda just done it...and i havent worked out at all over christmas break so im worried about how out of shape i am...like i know im going to be out of shape but the thought of wheezing away makes me want to die...i really should have kept up on working out...
so on a similar note...kinda...i decided to not overwhelm myself...like im not getting involved in 38572938572395 things this semester and unless i REALLY enjoyed doing it...im not gunna do it...cuz its so stupid to do all this shit that i dont even like just because i need to be involved and have a full resume...but at the same time i feel conflicted because when i was filling out a job application today i was really really proud to be able to put everything that i did last semester because it really made me look well rounded and i felt that i was really involved in great things and being a good person and making a difference...like im really glad that I volunteer for the rape crisis and abuse center and that’s something that doesn’t take up a ton of my time but It really makes a difference ya know…and I FINALLY finished the training for the online RAINN (rape & incest national network) crisis counselor so I just have to do a practice session w/ a supervisor then I can volunteer and sign up for shifts…I think that will be really good because I can sign up for shifts while I have an hour free between a class and it is really easy to like…sign up for short periods but I feel like I am making a difference in peoples lives….and I feel the same way about the special needs awareness committee like…I feel like…im really doing a good thing and I feel strongly about it…so I am going to keep doing that….i think just not having girls can will make me feel a lot more free because girls can was consistent and took up a lot of time…and was stressful and I liked it but I didn’t at the same time…it was weird I dunno….i feel like I need to get another job too…I applied for xaviers phonathon…it pays like $8/hr and is on campus and offers really flexible hours so that’s good….i REALLY hope I get it…even a lil extra income would be helpful…
here is my schedule so far…(my class schedule rocks too!)
Monday: 2:45-4:35 bio lab, then 4:35-6 work out
Tuesday: 11:30-12:45 World Religions, 1:00-1:50 bio class, 2:30-3:45 theory of knowledge (philosophy), 4:00-5:45 work out and shower, 6:00-8:30 contemporary social problems.
Wednesday: 4:00-6:30 life cycles II: adolescence-adulthood, 6:30-8:00 workout
Thursday: 11:30-12:45 world religions, 1:00-1:50 bio class, 2:30-3:45 theory of knowledge, 4:00-5:30 workout, 7:00-9:30 small group bible study w/ Donnie
Friday: 1:00-2:30 workout
Saturday: none
Sunday: 10:15-1:00 church w/ Donnie
I will sign up to be on-call 2 nights a month for the rape crisis center, I will sign up to do crisis counseling online for 8 hours a month, and I have babysitting randomly….which I hope keeps up because ive been getting a lot of money and saving a lot of money lately from that… then hopefully maybe like 12 hours a week of phonathon…
I really need to work on working out because I really want to lose weight… I think I may begin taking some “supplements” to help me lose weight…I dunno…I bought some…just the thought of taking 4 huge ass pills a day makes me feel icky…but I gotta do something…ive noticed since ive been living in the apt. im like NEVER eating which is great…esp since I do nothing all day and I have ample time to sit and literally eat all day….but I just haven’t been as hungry…when I get hungry I like…get ravishingly hungry and like…eat a decent amount but not really…I dunno hopefully since im less stressed I wont be eating as much and maybe I can lose some weight…
And living in the apt has been awesome so far…like so much less stressful…like I dunno I just feel so much better about everything and I just am a lot happier….but im gunna go be lazy and watch tv and be a bum….so yea