Saturday morning... kindof.
I need to be in bed right now, but I'm checking my LJ instead.
I'm dealing a little easier with everything than I was last night. It's hard coming to terms with Memaw becoming old and realizing how it really is. Everyone gets old, including everyone we love. Knowing that, you just have to appreciate the time you have with someone, and realize that what might not be your ideal scenario, might actually be what's best. I didn't go live with her before because I was afraid of coming in in the middle of the night and scaring her because she might have forgotten when I was coming home. She's afraid of being broken in on, and I didn't want to scare her every night. I work nights and keep long hours, and I don't like being a burden on people. I'm going to visit her on Sunday, see how she's doing, maybe go get her some pictures made and put them in some frames for her new place. I've been meaning to get her some of me for a while, I haven't given her any since I graduated, and she's been asking for some.
I think what gets me most is realizing that she is getting worse, and this is another stage of her life. she's still here, just not where I always imagined she would be. I'm still going to talk to mom about the house, see if she'll need to talk to aunt jan about it. Aunt Jan pretty much takes care of her financial stuff, all the bills and everything, so I'd ahve to talk to her along the way too. I'm willing to pay all the taxes on it, bills, and even rent if she insists. I still think it'd be cheaper than an apartment. Especially if I can talk the guys into it. we could all be together, one place, Dave may have a car, and we could always go in on a couple parking passes and carpool if nothing else. I talked to Dave about it, but haven't seen that other three yet. I can arrange a day for us to go over there if you guys want to see the place. I'll be back Sunday, so I'll probably talk to you then. If you read this before then, you can give me a call. I know distance is a factor, but I think this would be worth sacrificing some of that. I'll talk to you later about that though.
I'm gonna go check on some housing stuff though, I'll be around. Probably gonna be going to bed soon.
I'm dealing a little easier with everything than I was last night. It's hard coming to terms with Memaw becoming old and realizing how it really is. Everyone gets old, including everyone we love. Knowing that, you just have to appreciate the time you have with someone, and realize that what might not be your ideal scenario, might actually be what's best. I didn't go live with her before because I was afraid of coming in in the middle of the night and scaring her because she might have forgotten when I was coming home. She's afraid of being broken in on, and I didn't want to scare her every night. I work nights and keep long hours, and I don't like being a burden on people. I'm going to visit her on Sunday, see how she's doing, maybe go get her some pictures made and put them in some frames for her new place. I've been meaning to get her some of me for a while, I haven't given her any since I graduated, and she's been asking for some.
I think what gets me most is realizing that she is getting worse, and this is another stage of her life. she's still here, just not where I always imagined she would be. I'm still going to talk to mom about the house, see if she'll need to talk to aunt jan about it. Aunt Jan pretty much takes care of her financial stuff, all the bills and everything, so I'd ahve to talk to her along the way too. I'm willing to pay all the taxes on it, bills, and even rent if she insists. I still think it'd be cheaper than an apartment. Especially if I can talk the guys into it. we could all be together, one place, Dave may have a car, and we could always go in on a couple parking passes and carpool if nothing else. I talked to Dave about it, but haven't seen that other three yet. I can arrange a day for us to go over there if you guys want to see the place. I'll be back Sunday, so I'll probably talk to you then. If you read this before then, you can give me a call. I know distance is a factor, but I think this would be worth sacrificing some of that. I'll talk to you later about that though.
I'm gonna go check on some housing stuff though, I'll be around. Probably gonna be going to bed soon.