my head hurts

[tie_my_velcro]

ok, so today is going wishy-washy so far. which is really wierd cuz i want today to be perfect. yesterday was great. but this morning was great at first. i wasn't tired or anything. then lunch came and vince totally ruined me. but gay joe made me better. then i dunno. i can't wait until school is over today so i can go home. and it's even better cuz i have no skool tomorrow. yuppers. my mom just busted up and gave me $40.00 today. what the fuck. she said it's cause i 'quit smoking' (or in other words, i stopped smoking her cigarette and started buying my own). yeah....and the first thing i'm gunna do is buy cigarettes. hmmm...odd how those things work.

i want today to be perfect. i dunno why, but i want something really, really, really good to happen today. i dunno what. i don't have any expectations or anything. i just want sumthing good to happen. well, ok, to be honest, i do kinda have something in mind, but...well..i dunno. i have no idea what he thinks, so.....

question: how can just one single touch from someone make your whole outlook change? i mean, you could be in a rancid mood, and that person could just touch your arm, you face or even your knee, and your mood could be uplifted. hmmmm........

"....i want to be the one she calls on her cigarette break. not the cause of it."

-saul williams

when you smile at me, i can't breathe.