Super-Brad.... well not really more like Clark Kent
Ah it feels nice to be home. Just returned home yesterday after the longest week of my life (including being mugged and ending up with a concussion from it). Ya know it ain't all that bad being back here now. After Jenny left i realized why Rachel was so mad-like at me before. It was just her not being able to flat out say how she felt about Jenny. My head still hurt and so i am kinda odd like still, and easily confused. I Damn near snapped on Sara Dave and Franz for yelling all night, so i went over there to ask them kindly to be quiet and they yelled at me to try to make my headache worse. I damn near snapped. I am waiting for it, Nate promised i would snap eventually. But then things felt funny, Jenny turned around and started to complain to me about Rachel. Then forced me to promise i wouldn't tell.... so i put it here. Cuz i figure it might get where it needs to go, but whatever. I will tell Rachel when she gets away from Jenny. I just don't want to cause problems here because i live here. I dont' feel like shitting where i sleep. I dont' want to yell or argue with Rachel now because i like her. She is a cool person, just stressed. So when she gets mad now i usually figure, unless it is really spot on attack, that she is just venting, and she needs that. I saw her away message that called herself a bitch (in a bad way this time) and i felt bad, she got that name for 2 reasons. Dave calls her that all the time, and for blowing up at Andrea, who deserved it. Well i guess there was also Josh and Andrea's continued abuse by her, but no one complained. She told me she just wants to be alone more. Well i can facilitate that, shit, i will make some plans to get outta here if i can. Maybe i will convince jenny to go somewhere with me, then she is out too. It is driving me NUTS after only one day how much she complains about how messy it gets. The garbage was full, ok, i was going to do that until i got ill again last night and threw up (doc said i should expect things like that to happen for a couple days, my head i re-adjusting to the blow). Well she kept saying, "Well you could just get up now and do it, cuz i am tired of cleaning this house, adn i am not taking that trash out." I also stayed on the couch which might not have helped my looking like a bum here. But i don't want rachel to be upset. She is still cool in my book and the bitchiness, i feel, can be fun and its force comes and goes. there are times when i think she is the nicest one i know. For the simple reason that she says her mind. I can't, i feel bad. Not necessarily because i want them to like me, but because i was the one that was picked on for years and no one stood up for me. So i try to stand up for people here and there. Oh and i can never make the term Bitch to be Rachel's title, cuz then she gets that song to her name and i associate that too strongly with my first girlfriend. So i am going to try to help things out with her this week. Hell maybe i can snap on someone now that i have lost my mind eh... key yuk..... Well i am going to get back to chilling round the apt. But i have a mission now. Rachel is to feel better, even if it means i get Jenny and i outta here for the week. Which i doubt i have the power to make happen.