What is it Skye?

[tidingstradgedy]

It's always the one you like the most
that is already taken
It's always the one that likes you the most
that you can't see yourself with
It's the nights getting colder
It's the work getting harder
It's the money running out half way through the month
It's everything I can do not to break down in tears
It's spending 8 months on 20 minutes of music
It's Chilla shivering in the cold
It's how the best night is always followed by the worst day
It's the way love isn't real, only friendship is
It's how having the best friends in the world doesn't seem to matter
It's the fact that I bought my own house yet can't even afford food
It's the way my parents gave me a passport for my birthday
It's how there's nothing that could have helped me more
It's the way people look up to you even though they are the better person
It's the way I come off
It's the things I DON'T say
It's the fact that the snow is coming
the grey will soon move in
there's nowhere I can run
and there is no way I can hide
It's so much more than this

But mostly, It's how I write this to feel better, but feel no different