First Entry...
Well, since I can't seem to get my ass off the computer to do the journaling I know I need to do, I figured I'd try this out. Cow recommends it, and hey, that's good enough for me.
So, here I am, and we'll see where this goes.....
I'm in a really down mood tonight. I suppose that's nothing new.... My life went from being seemingly perfect to just dwindling down to barely nothing. Yeah, the divorce hit me really hard, and I still have not gotten over Reed... I miss him.
Okay, so listening to this song isn't helping. It makes me very sad for some reason. But it's so beautiful I can't turn it off.
It was only a week ago that I saw Reed for the first time since our divorce. Seeing him was so difficult for me.... I knew I needed to, and I knew it was pretty much going to shatter what was left of me, and I was right.
I know my life shouldn't have been/shouldn't be defined by another person..... but the heart rarely listens to the rational mind, you know?
There was nothing more beautiful than the Grand Canyon at sunset...... but gods above, I wish I would have known that the sunset was symbolic of what was happening between us.... but how could I have known?
Am I destined to feel this way forever? It's only getting worse as time goes on... I don't feel anything healing; instead, I feel everything being ripped apart worse.
Okay, so this isn't a very positive entry.... but hey......
More later.....
So, here I am, and we'll see where this goes.....
I'm in a really down mood tonight. I suppose that's nothing new.... My life went from being seemingly perfect to just dwindling down to barely nothing. Yeah, the divorce hit me really hard, and I still have not gotten over Reed... I miss him.
Okay, so listening to this song isn't helping. It makes me very sad for some reason. But it's so beautiful I can't turn it off.
It was only a week ago that I saw Reed for the first time since our divorce. Seeing him was so difficult for me.... I knew I needed to, and I knew it was pretty much going to shatter what was left of me, and I was right.
I know my life shouldn't have been/shouldn't be defined by another person..... but the heart rarely listens to the rational mind, you know?
There was nothing more beautiful than the Grand Canyon at sunset...... but gods above, I wish I would have known that the sunset was symbolic of what was happening between us.... but how could I have known?
Am I destined to feel this way forever? It's only getting worse as time goes on... I don't feel anything healing; instead, I feel everything being ripped apart worse.
Okay, so this isn't a very positive entry.... but hey......
More later.....