Life Sucks
So, today is my day off. Feels good to rest every once in a while. But sometimes rest can stress me out.
I'm a person that likes to sit and think--about all kinds of things. Anything and everything. I meditate on things I'm sure most people don't even have a thought about--like how birds feel about power lines... To say the least, I live a lot in my head. That is not to say there is a lot up there, just that I like to think about things.
Well, on days off, that gives me extra time to think--which is sometimes good, and sometimes bad. Today, it is good.... but not for any inherent reason.
Monday night, I found out that my uncle, who has cancer, was told there is nothing more they can do, and they will basically help with the pain, while they allow the cancer to strangle the life out of his 46 year old body. That is something I think about... And that his father (my Papaw) turns 71 today. Can you imagine turning 71, knowing it is an age (barring a complete miracle) that your son will never reach?And this is a man who has given his entire life to the ministry. Life is NOT fair.
For some reason--I can't even explain it, there is a strange peace in knowing that life is not fair, but that God is merciful. I mean, imagine if my uncle got healed! What a miracle! How awesome! But then, in 30 years, he would die... Everyone does. Every person Jesus healed during his ministry ended up dying. Lazarus was was commanded to come out of the grave, just so that in a few decades he could be told to walk back in it.... So really, no one gets truly HEALED until the resurrection. Some people get a taste of the resurrection early, but some people don't. That doesn't make God unfair, it makes Him awesome!!!
We know that in the end, everyone will be resurrected. It's sad to see people go now--we don't like it. And it seems strange that some people are healed of cancer, and others just fight it to the death--and sometimes we want to blame God, but that's silly. God is the healer! He WILL heal us all. We just don't know if it's now, or in the end, but everyone will die, and no one gets fully healed until the resurrection anyway.
So I guess, this is one way that I am growing closer to God through this family tragedy. Thank God for days off to think about things, otherwise, I'd probably be pissed about the whole ordeal, because it doesn't seem fair. Life Sucks, but God is awesome!
I'm a person that likes to sit and think--about all kinds of things. Anything and everything. I meditate on things I'm sure most people don't even have a thought about--like how birds feel about power lines... To say the least, I live a lot in my head. That is not to say there is a lot up there, just that I like to think about things.
Well, on days off, that gives me extra time to think--which is sometimes good, and sometimes bad. Today, it is good.... but not for any inherent reason.
Monday night, I found out that my uncle, who has cancer, was told there is nothing more they can do, and they will basically help with the pain, while they allow the cancer to strangle the life out of his 46 year old body. That is something I think about... And that his father (my Papaw) turns 71 today. Can you imagine turning 71, knowing it is an age (barring a complete miracle) that your son will never reach?And this is a man who has given his entire life to the ministry. Life is NOT fair.
For some reason--I can't even explain it, there is a strange peace in knowing that life is not fair, but that God is merciful. I mean, imagine if my uncle got healed! What a miracle! How awesome! But then, in 30 years, he would die... Everyone does. Every person Jesus healed during his ministry ended up dying. Lazarus was was commanded to come out of the grave, just so that in a few decades he could be told to walk back in it.... So really, no one gets truly HEALED until the resurrection. Some people get a taste of the resurrection early, but some people don't. That doesn't make God unfair, it makes Him awesome!!!
We know that in the end, everyone will be resurrected. It's sad to see people go now--we don't like it. And it seems strange that some people are healed of cancer, and others just fight it to the death--and sometimes we want to blame God, but that's silly. God is the healer! He WILL heal us all. We just don't know if it's now, or in the end, but everyone will die, and no one gets fully healed until the resurrection anyway.
So I guess, this is one way that I am growing closer to God through this family tragedy. Thank God for days off to think about things, otherwise, I'd probably be pissed about the whole ordeal, because it doesn't seem fair. Life Sucks, but God is awesome!