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lucy is looking out the window. the low window with uma's hand dyed goddess tapestry.
lucy is looking out the window, high on the tip of her half rabbit-cat feet.
franklin is pacing-ly making me nauseous.
i lit the lemongrass incense and it was free and i should have known that now the house is over-whelming.
i started bleeding today in this wave of tsunami like pain.
i thought without a doubt i was miscarrying i was between classes on the floor at josh and uma's crying while josh made my tonic.
raspberry leaves, oatstraw, crampbark, yarrow etc.
i drank it (it was so strong) and drifted off into heavy sleep.
i've been feeling like my new skin is developing quickly, without shedding my old.
i think i am constantly battling bad feelings.
i have learned how to be rational/easier on myself, i just have to do it a lot.
sometimes you go through these points where nothing seems exciting at the end of the day.
and you will make it through those times and a week will come where you can't contain.
this is all okay, right?
there is so much more i could say.
updates with the boy.
the farm house.
new tattoos.
trips i will be taking.
the way i've learned to wrap my hair.
funny moments teaching the kids.
a new date?
but i am tired!
first class was at 8 am today and i was up and down all night with pre blood cramping!
later? okay.
lucy is looking out the window, high on the tip of her half rabbit-cat feet.
franklin is pacing-ly making me nauseous.
i lit the lemongrass incense and it was free and i should have known that now the house is over-whelming.
i started bleeding today in this wave of tsunami like pain.
i thought without a doubt i was miscarrying i was between classes on the floor at josh and uma's crying while josh made my tonic.
raspberry leaves, oatstraw, crampbark, yarrow etc.
i drank it (it was so strong) and drifted off into heavy sleep.
i've been feeling like my new skin is developing quickly, without shedding my old.
i think i am constantly battling bad feelings.
i have learned how to be rational/easier on myself, i just have to do it a lot.
sometimes you go through these points where nothing seems exciting at the end of the day.
and you will make it through those times and a week will come where you can't contain.
this is all okay, right?
there is so much more i could say.
updates with the boy.
the farm house.
new tattoos.
trips i will be taking.
the way i've learned to wrap my hair.
funny moments teaching the kids.
a new date?
but i am tired!
first class was at 8 am today and i was up and down all night with pre blood cramping!
later? okay.