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last night was pretty freaking amazingly off the wall. and im not exagerrating at all. not one little bit.
the day started off perfectly normal, we dropped britt off at work, i took a shower, hung out with dave, and then everyone went to cici's. we got daves drums, and got the band room back in order.
then, the madness began.
we got back to my house, and me and brittany made like, 70 water balloons, because the other thirty popped. and i wanted to go swimming sooo bad. but dave and tom ambushed me and brittany with the balloons, so we ran around my court like animals and threw water balloons and just had fun. we got dave drenched. :D :D
me and britttany tried to convince everyone to come swimming with us, and guess what? it worked!@#!$
8:30 at night, and were on our way over to sunset beach to swim at the communtiy beach. yeah, now it sound pretty crazy. but we didnt make it in time. it started pouring and thundering and lightening. so we went to park, and played on all the metal seesaws and slides, it was so much fun.
ever since last weekend, we all wanted to rave, and josh has wanted a crazy party since the beginning of this week. so we had about 26 glowsticks, a techno station on the tv, and about 13 kids.
we all thought it would be great, to break the glowsticks and smear the stuff all over ourselves. it worked at first. but then, somehow, it was splattered all over the walls, and on the carpet and the ceiling. it was EVERYWHERE! no lie, i think someone got pictures, because i saw the flash.
it felt so good, to just jump aorund like i had no sense, and not care about anyone or anything in the world. honestly, no lie, the pope could be knocking on my door, and i wouldnt even notice. everyone was having a blast just jumping, and yelling, and waving glowsticks. i don't think i've ever felt that free in my whole life. because everything else we do has rules. even when you think your free your not. like, when your driving in the car screaming at the top of your lungs to a song that you more than likely hate, you better have you seatbelt on, and don't you dare go over the speed limit.
it just felt really really good.
and whoever said you needed to be on e at a rave, lied. because there were 13 kids who weren't on anything and pretty much had the best time ever.
i kind of ruined it, because i got unresonably scared that my mom was going to come home, when 1. i wasn't suposed to have anyone over, and 2. her living room was glowing almost as bright as the las vegas strip.
i ran out of the house, and im not sure what that was going to do, i just ran, and im not exactly sure where i was running too, and why i was even running, because i ahte running. i just had this emense amount of energy, and stress, and fear, all balled up into one spontanious night, that needed to find a release i guess.
i feel bad that i ruined the party, and im sorry if you were having a good time and i stopped it. someone talked to me last night, and made me realize that i shouldn't feel bad for this, everyone had their good time, and the should be grateful for that. nad i guess it makes sense. but, i just hope everyone understands why i was afraid, and why i just couldn't handle it anymore, and if you don't than, well, i don't know what to tell you.
everyone left, and i got upset that dave was leaving again. im just having a tought time dealing with the fact that it's going to be hard to see him for the next couple of weeks. he starts his new job tommorow. and im so proud of him that he took it. he also starts driving school, which also makes me proud of him, because that means his parents are seeing him improve with his grades, and especially in geometry.
i just, i like being able to spend time with him, and now i won't be able to as much. and im not sure really what im going to do with myself, because i have that set schedule during the week, and now it's all going to be changed. so i have alot of free time, which i can't spend all of with myself. so if anyone has something to do on the weekdays, and you wouldn't mind me tagging along, let me know. i think it would help i fi wasn't constantly thinking about how, right now, i want to be with dave.
but anyways, next weekend is a sunday morning show. everyone should go and support them, because after all it is there first show, and i think it would mean alot to them if people were there showing their support. so everyone should go.
the sunday morning drive home
@ st johns (phoenix)
w/ burning rosewood, blame jamie, silent film $5
and it's only $5.
i won't be able to go, im spending time with my aunt, which should be fun, but im still bummed that i won't be able to make it.
the next couple of weekends i think things should slow down around my house, because my mom, and this wonderful guy that i know, think that i should have some time to have fun, without having to worry about then ten kids that are at my house, and what they're doing, and having to clean up their mess and stuff like that, that this past couple of weeks have just been able to push me over the edge. this week was not my week.
but, thats over and done with, it's sunday, a new week starts tommorow, and i htink the slump i was in is over with. so it should be a good week. im excited about going to school. i actually want to go to soccer practice. i can't wait to see my aunt and my cousins. and saturday me and britt are having a movie night. awesome.
lately, me and britt have gotten really close. and i love it. it's a wonderful feeling knowing that people will be there for anything. and shes just so much fun! and the past couple weekends shes been an amazing help at cleaning up, and making me feel better. i dont know, brittany orange is just amazing.
i just realized that i've been writing you guys a novel. so, i'll end it here. i hope this long post didn't bother you so much, and you actually made it through it. haha.
oh, one more thing.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHY WOSHY!