Sad...

[ticklemehiney]

My grandma's sister died today...she had lung cancer because she smoked a whole lot. I never met her because she lived in Ohio and we lived in California, but still. I was sitting and thinking about it and I don't know what my grandma must be going through. If I lost one of my sisters...I...I don't know what I would do. I almost did lose them...both of them. I would probably die if I didn't have them. You know...no one counseled me when they were going through what they were going through...no one knows what it's like being the only one out of 3 that didn't have cancer. And to have to hear the stories over and over and over. No one cared to ask me how I felt...or what I was feeling. They all say "Yeah Kristina doesn't have anything. Yeah she should be lucky." I mean I'm sorry if I was the one who didn't get it. I am so thankful I didn't get it. I always feel bad that I didn't get it...like it should have been me...I don't know...

On a happier note...my sister is pregnant and is due February the 5th 2006.

Kristina