im not even sexy enough for my cat....
I feel so sick. it could be one of many things.
*the fact that unlike other years im actually aware of how important this weekend's meet is.
*the fact that college is becoming real and i keep having panic attacks about having to go somewhere without mommy and daddy
*the fact i HATE feeling left out and egg harbor is going to be one big party of me sitting by myself since i have no friends in track anymore. *woe is me*
*the fact that i had to bail on m&m's show at the last minute...
i wish i could go to buck's county with everyone. its such a great day every year..so refreshing and fun and just...amazing. and i can't go. it would figure that on a day where its supposed to be relaxing and..joyous..i suppose, im double booked. fcuk. yes...fcuk.
if anyone's been paying attention to my "....AWKWAAAARD" comic strip, today provided me with another installment.
i sat at the end of the band hallway. on a wooden raft with wheels. wearing a ratty afro wig. and an equally ratty jim the slave outfit. singing some andrea bocelli through a pipe...........CMH walks by.
"what the hell are you doing?"
...its a hard life i live. i wish that one day God would just bless me with the powers of being suave. im not suave or slick or anything. i wish that one day God was like "Araba...since I've blessed you with many things..except for the one thing that actually matters. here! here is the power of SUAVE for a day. go crazy"
and go crazy i would. id go nucking futs. maybe this weekend ill be overcome with SUAVE. is anyone reading this suave? can you teach me? its hard transition....being a complete and utter idiot for 18 years and then realize..."hm. i should probably do something about my socially crippling awkwardness. everyone always goes ARABA HE'S PROBABLY THINKING THE SAME THING. PFFFFTTT no. ugh. you need to have like the secrets of fairies to be hot or smooth enough to talk to that kid. *sighs* id be alot more distressed if it wasnt a completely physical attraction...
BUT. i digress.
*sigh*....WELL. i hope everyone has a good weekend. all people involved in Buck's County...GOOD LUCK! have fun over the weekend. everyone else..enjoy a fantastic senior cut day.
REMEMBER ME. TEXT ME! 2 hours away. with no friends. a defective phone and 2 days worth of athletic shenanigans and possibly some suave if the cosmos decide to stop hating me for 5 minutes.
P.S. finish island of the sequined love nun. FANTASTIC <33333. ordered the stupidest angel from barnes and noble but OF COURSE. it gets here tomorrow...when im not here.
...its a hard. hard. HARD. life i live.
*the fact that unlike other years im actually aware of how important this weekend's meet is.
*the fact that college is becoming real and i keep having panic attacks about having to go somewhere without mommy and daddy
*the fact i HATE feeling left out and egg harbor is going to be one big party of me sitting by myself since i have no friends in track anymore. *woe is me*
*the fact that i had to bail on m&m's show at the last minute...
i wish i could go to buck's county with everyone. its such a great day every year..so refreshing and fun and just...amazing. and i can't go. it would figure that on a day where its supposed to be relaxing and..joyous..i suppose, im double booked. fcuk. yes...fcuk.
if anyone's been paying attention to my "....AWKWAAAARD" comic strip, today provided me with another installment.
i sat at the end of the band hallway. on a wooden raft with wheels. wearing a ratty afro wig. and an equally ratty jim the slave outfit. singing some andrea bocelli through a pipe...........CMH walks by.
"what the hell are you doing?"
...its a hard life i live. i wish that one day God would just bless me with the powers of being suave. im not suave or slick or anything. i wish that one day God was like "Araba...since I've blessed you with many things..except for the one thing that actually matters. here! here is the power of SUAVE for a day. go crazy"
and go crazy i would. id go nucking futs. maybe this weekend ill be overcome with SUAVE. is anyone reading this suave? can you teach me? its hard transition....being a complete and utter idiot for 18 years and then realize..."hm. i should probably do something about my socially crippling awkwardness. everyone always goes ARABA HE'S PROBABLY THINKING THE SAME THING. PFFFFTTT no. ugh. you need to have like the secrets of fairies to be hot or smooth enough to talk to that kid. *sighs* id be alot more distressed if it wasnt a completely physical attraction...
BUT. i digress.
*sigh*....WELL. i hope everyone has a good weekend. all people involved in Buck's County...GOOD LUCK! have fun over the weekend. everyone else..enjoy a fantastic senior cut day.
REMEMBER ME. TEXT ME! 2 hours away. with no friends. a defective phone and 2 days worth of athletic shenanigans and possibly some suave if the cosmos decide to stop hating me for 5 minutes.
P.S. finish island of the sequined love nun. FANTASTIC <33333. ordered the stupidest angel from barnes and noble but OF COURSE. it gets here tomorrow...when im not here.
...its a hard. hard. HARD. life i live.